My Life

Last entry

2006-04-09T16:45:00.000+08:00

This will be the last entry
cos cyberspace is not safe
so why bother to convey my thoughts
to many ple who i don even know?

but anyway, i'll end this blog with a happy ending
guess wat?
My first grade 3 student got a distinction for her piano exams!!!!!
I'm so proud of her:D
and of course proud of myself..
i din noe i'm such a great teacher
with a great student..
haha..
hip hip hurray!!!!

confused..

2006-03-22T21:01:00.000+08:00

i'm confused..
what should i do?
no idea..
jus wait and feel ba..
he..
haiz....

A Happening WeEk..

2006-03-19T10:21:00.000+08:00

This week is a happening week i sld say..
good and bad things happened..
of course i shalll say only the good things:D
haha
why bother to rem all the bad memories??
anyway,
First good event: Watch Disney On Ice with san..
childish? but i enjoyed myself nevertheless..
i never imagine that i'll have the chance to watch such nice performance..
but anyway, i'm sure tat i'll bring my kids to watch it one day if there's still this performance then..
haha
watching all the cartoon characters bring back memories..
childhood memories..
i also realise tat the stories in fairy tales have a moral behind each story
for beauty and the beast,
it says tat one should not judge a person by appearance,
but is the true character of tat person that really counts..
too bad my sleeping beauty is not around..

On friday, i finally got myself a new waterbottle!!!
went shopping with Royston
cos he's attending his student's birthday party and have no idea what to get for her
so ask me to acco him go buy..
end up did a fair share of shopping myself..
haha
gota new backpack too..
Hmm..
Royston's a pretty nice guy..
always help me out in my studies..
especially programming..
but he's not v.good looking and rather short..
hmm..

Alright..
third thing i did this week was that i cut my hair!!!!
quite happy with my new hairstyle..
haha...
nothing much le..
studied programming the whole day on sat
and intend to continue programming on sun
cos i missed lots of tuts..
kinda couldn't catch up..
but anyway,

"life goes on and on..."

i realise i've always had a good life

2006-02-19T15:59:00.000+08:00

last week was a busy and stressful week for me
had my midterm exams
sometimes i was wondering why i've to go through all these
but when i think about it,
i realise i was v.lucky and happy with my life so far
i recalled my childhood..
memories of being loved, pampered, cared..
i'm in a good family i realise
not really v.rich but at least i feel loved

then i recalled my secondary school days..
where i had lots of happy memories too..
Esp with sanz and yingz.. wahaha:D
secondary sch days was really good..
easy and had great sense of achievement
had the enthusiam to work hard for my results
something i find lacking now
don really know why..
maybe my thinking have changed over time
but anyway, i realise how smooth my road have been
i realise tat i'm really blessed
with a group of good and close frenz..
really grateful to them..
they've changed me in some ways..
Wanna say a BIG Thank You to my buddies
PeiSan, HuiYing and HuiPing:D

my jc days was quite fun too
though is really short,
two years,
but i got to noe some really close frenz there..
like eileen, mingping, weiyu and wenhui..
time really flies

recalled my working life too..
was short but learned some lessons..

as life goes on,
i realise i've been feeling more tired
tired of life..
losing my way at moments
university life was tough
stressed..
but i guess it won't be any better nxt time
when i'll be working
with lots of competition
politics..
i've been trying to figure out wat i want in life..
always trying to figure out tat..
and i realise all i want is
a simple and peaceful life
with a caring and responsible husband..
i realise tat i don need to be too rich
nor too poor..
enjoy simple things in life..
jus like my parents..

It's valentine's day today!!

2006-02-14T21:47:00.000+08:00

Valentine's day today
nothing much happened
had a less then expected peaceful day
rushing for sch
studying for midterm test
talking during lecture
a day went pass jus like tat..
but at least received roses..
ps don ask is fm who..
cos everyone's asking tat
and it's kinda irritating..

Saterday..

2006-02-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

Enjoyed myself today..
went to school to study w yingz..
intended to go jogging but due to certain reasons,
din accomplish the mission..
after tat went to jurong east..
for a dinner and a movie...
i not stupid 2..
tat movie was really good..
the best of Liang Zhi Qiang so far
though i hate the way they speak hokien
cos i donno wat they talking about
and gotta look at the subtitles..
but anyway,
the movie was v.touching..
actually, his movies reflected life of many kids nowadays..
where both parents are busy working,
even though they love their kids,
but they donno how to show it
and another point he pointed out is really quite true..
is tat we don get praised as much as we grow up..
but tat's life..
isn't??
Sometimes is not only tat we don get praised,
but we're critised or scolded for things we do wrong
this movie reflects well on the teenager's thoughts..

i also realise tat i was luckily enough
to be in a not too bad family i guess..
i seriously think tat ping fan is xin fu..

the road to recovery

2006-01-20T17:06:00.000+08:00

finally..
recovering..
feeling much better:D

Hmm..
let me think of my new year resolution:
1. Get healthy
2. keep in touch w my frenz
3. Spread the msg of love to everyone
4. get cap 4 by the end of this sem
yupz.. tat's all.. not too much..

sick continues

2006-01-13T16:50:00.000+08:00

Good things never last
bad things last..
Haiz..
This stupid sorethroat of mine
escalated to flu plus sorethroat
this still not bad enuff??
Fever came in ytd night..
and cough came today
my body is in battle mode with the virus!!
Hopefully i can win the battle myself..
sleep all day this few days
lucky that i don have school..
or i sld say i pon some lectures..
haha

sick at home

2006-01-10T13:38:00.001+08:00

i hate this
gonna retype wat i've written
haiz..
don feel like doing so
so the end

school again

2006-01-08T13:14:00.000+08:00

Holidays are gg to be over
school is starting tml
so sianz
i don think 2006 will be a good year
cos din really have a good start
and it's like always raining lately
intend to go out today,
but because of the stupid rain,
i'm blogging again
haha

Had a great holiday this round
went out almost everyday
haha
catch up with my frens
get myself some goodies
cos is like not much time to pamper myself during the school days
haha

Anyway,
jus talk abit about the treking
at mount ophir,
the 6th hardest to climb mountain
this is my first treking trip
was really frighten on the first day
treking up to almost half the mountain
lost my way at this moment cos i couldn't catch up with the front ple
and those behind me was not in my sight too
cos there are lots of branches along the way
so i realise i went the wrong way
but i don noe where's the correct way either
so i jus waited
till my fren came down and look for me
was really scared cos is a trek with a steep slope on both sides
don look safe
but anyway, really glad that i managed to survive
and i'm back!!
it was indeed a great experience..
it was the first time in my life tat i feel so frighten
so helpless..
of course i feel tat when i'm on a roller coaster too..
but roller coaster only last for afew minutes
while this thing last slightly longer..

Results out

2005-12-23T20:08:00.000+08:00

Result's out..
did quite badly..
only got 3.7 cap..
if i continues this way,
i'll end up in 2nd lower honors
which is might as well don take honors
haiz
abit disappointed
but is alright
cos i'll put in more effort nxt sem
hoping to rise my cap to 4
to get myself a 2nd upper honors..
yupz
i can do it
all the best luck to me..

Arrival of my new piano, Weber

2005-12-22T22:15:00.000+08:00

Today marks the day of the arrival of my new piano,
in other words the farewell of my old piano
which have been together with me for 10 years
yes, this 10 years, i've enjoyed myself with ya,
happy moments and unhappy moments..
accompanied me till i achieved my grade 8
Thanks so much for being there with me
i really enjoyed playing on u..
today when i'm trying on my new piano,
i really miss the tone and touch u've given me
it jus feels different..
i wonder when i'll get over my feelings for u..
think i'll never forget u..

Today marks the beginning of my new friendship with my new piano
i wonder when i'll get used to the tone
but this new piaon is also not bad la
so hopefully i'll have a great time with my new piano!!

wings house

2005-12-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

It's been long since i say hi to ar zhi???
haha
went to yingz hse
watch the beginning of frog prince
realise i din miss much of it
That's great
tell u guys something
yingz super pig la!!
She's sleeping in the afternoon la..
but think her bed is really quite tempting
so cannot blame her..
Anyway, went to gym after that..
i realise that her gym is relatively packed
considering is a monday afternoon..
cos my gym like no ple in the afternoon la..
that's beside the point though..
i went to do some weights..
Had a great time:D
Hmm..
was thinking of how fast time has past
all of us has matured in some ways
but its really wonderful that after so long
we are still so closed
really v.thankful to have such a great fren
love ya yingz

My trip to AMK

2005-12-13T22:04:00.000+08:00

Went AMK w MP today
eat alot of goodies
Hmm...
AMK really serves good food
suppose to go Orchard today
But somehow weiyu not free
so me and mp decided to go elsewhere
suggested AMK
cos kinda miss that place,
a place i used to go v.often during my JC days
had lots of fun
Eating, eating and eating
after that we went to "roll" ard
then go library
had ice-cream Brownie
super nice
jus one mouth of that can send u to heaven!!
After that
go playground
Enjoyed myself on the swing
it's long since i went to playground
but as usual
the swing is superb fun!!
recall those sec sch days when i used to go to this playground
and play the swing
this playground has left memories
though i v.long never visit there
Anyway, had a great day..

life after exams

2005-12-04T21:47:00.000+08:00

Shopping
Shopping
Shopping

Eating
Eating
Eating

Haha.. that's my life after exams
no more books
go out almost everyday
for the whole week
spending almost all my money
Wow..
i jus realise money so easy to spend
and so hard to find..
Hmm..
contridiction here!!!
haha:D

Birthday celebration

2005-11-27T22:46:00.000+08:00

Had a great day today
went to celeb my birthday(Super belated)
with my buddies:D
Super great to get together again
Hmm..
Thinking back,
there're really lots of beautiful memories with them
time have past,
every have grown and matured i guess
but we're still so close
which gives the birthday celebration the real meaning
THANKS BUDDIES
for all these memories
and effort to stay together
though we're all in a different enviro
and of course the presents:D
hopefully,
we'll be meeting up even till we grow old
and i strongly believe that we would..
Love u all..

Just one more

2005-11-23T14:45:00.000+08:00

Just one more paper to go!!
Hip hip huray!!
Endure..
Soon it'll be gg to be over!!
Hmm..
what should i do after exams?
sudden freedom makes me feel lost sometimes
am i normal??
i yearn to finish exams
yet when everythings over,
i feel lost..
haha..

Over Soon

2005-11-21T22:38:00.000+08:00

Yuppie!!
Exams is gg to be over soon!!
Having said that, i still have 2 more subjects to go!!
Think this period have been a stressful period
and boring period i should say..
Mugging at home
entertaining urself when u feel bored
Enjoy mugging
and mugging
and mugging..
Hmm.. think by the end of 4 yrs
i'll have super thick glassses!!!!!
But that's life..
sad reality of life
is that people have to do things they don really like
but is forced to "like"
or get used to at least..
everyone get stressed because of paper!!
from tree.. haha:D
that's self entertainment
something i do when i'm bored..
like now

What is love?

2005-11-18T10:42:00.000+08:00

Anyone know of some easy and accurate way to determine if one's in love?

Happy 19th Birthday

2005-11-17T15:49:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday to me:D
Finally is my birthday
so touched that many of my frens remember
and greeted me:D
so happy
Though is kinda exam period
but is the thought that counts..
Thanks so much buddies:D
especially Yingz..
she's the one who msg me at 1200
exactly!!
cool.. though i din read the msg then
cos is like i'm sleepingz..
But still appreciated her effort..
Love u all:D
quite surprised that some close frens
neve greet me though..

Got a card from James..
and a lunch treat:p
So sweet!!
Though his handwriting is really horrible!!
haha
gotta nice pandant form mom
love it lots:D
Thanks so much..
Got $20 bucks from my brother
Love it too:D
v.practical
can go eat with frenz..
haha
The best part is got lots of ang baos
from my parents and grandparents
cos this year my chinese and english birthday
lies on the same day
so i'll have a good feast tonight
and a cake..
Fruit cake..

Gotta get back to study
having physic exam tml..
All the best to my frens who's busy mugging
and to me too:D
Muak..

Exams

2005-11-09T18:56:00.000+08:00

Today had my nano test..
30MCQs
Quite easy:D
Life have been better lately
all projects are cleared..
Tutorials finishing..
Jus revisions
haven started revision though
cos studied for Nano test for the whole of last week
began to feel the stress
cos everyone is mugging hard

Disappointment

2005-11-09T18:47:00.000+08:00

Today..
I'm quite disappointed with my JC fren
I felt foolish to treat her as my close fren
v.foolish..
I'm disguisted..
How can she do this?
She actually went for breakfast at Macdonalds
with my another friend..
Then go com lab with me..
I know very well that she don need a breakfast
But she choose to follow Shiru..
During lecture and tut,
she also choose to sit with her than me..
I don noe if i'm being too sensitive,
but i really am disappoinated..
It hurts..
seeing someone u though as close to
actually don treat u likewise..
But All is going to end..
She's transfering to arts and social science..
I still wish her well in her new faculty..
Here i kiss my fren goodbye..

Friday night before i sleepz..

2005-10-28T22:27:00.000+08:00

i blog..
haha..

Have been quite busy lately( This week in particular)..
Rushing reports and projects..
rushing for class..
Rushing to complete my tutorials..
Rushing here and there..

Having to rush, i feel that i'm neglecting my dear frenz..
so sorry..
but i'm really having a hard time coping with all these stuffs..
Things that gotta be done gotta be done..
no choice..
Hmm..
maybe make up to them during holidayz..

Signup for treking mount ophir with rover
so excited..
will be leaving at 26 Dec..

how i wish holidays start tomorrow..
dreaming..
how i wish i don have any exams..
and get a honors after 4 years..
i don really believe in exams!!!
and i'm sick of projects and reports..
can't they give us more interesting things to do..
like..
slacking???
haha..
impossible though..

Alright, better get some sleepz..
though is early..
10.30pm..
people consider sleeping at 10.30pm early!!!
Oh my God..
craping again..
cos i'm sleepy..
Good night everyone..

Thursday..

2005-10-20T21:50:00.000+08:00

Today

Hmm.. today pon morning math lec..
Every thursday pon morning math lec..
cos is a waste of time!!!
Gotta 5 hours break..

This is the first time i watch webcast for this math lec..
Hmm.. actually watching webcast is better then the actual lec
cos u're all alone in the room..
so no one to talk to and distract urself..
But i usually v.lazy to listen to webcast
cos i don noe wat the hell the teacher is talking about..
so why borther..

Yesterday..
Went to Sheryln's pgp(some residental..)
her room is quite tidy..
Lots of winnies around..
Maybe abit more then my room..
cos i like all four cartoons..
Pooh, piglet, donkey(EeeOoo) and tigger!!!
The only one i don have in my room is tigger..
so i'll go get myself a tigger something one day and add on to my pooh's family:D
Anyway,
catch up on nanotech lecture notes there cos i've been sleeping during lec..

Went to a piano concert at the CNN or NCC after that..
A block in NUS ba..
Anyway, that's not the impt point..
the impt point is that the players are super good
they are from piano ensemble..
luckily i din join that CCA
or else i'll be the worse player!!!
haha
don really noe why,
sitting at the audience sit make me nervous..
i could picture myself performing..
i would think back of my past concerts where i perform..
it doesn't feel good..
especially when my stomach is upset yesterday..
but nevertheless..
i enjoyed the performance:D
especially the guy playing Debussy's L'sle Joyeuse..
U know, Debussy's songs are technically challenging..
He wrote pieces to describe pictures drawn in the impressionist period..
i always enjoy song from impressionist period and romatic era..
Anyway, it's really nice to relax and enjoy the music esp when life is stressed..

Life

2005-10-15T21:57:00.001+08:00

Do u noe what it's like to feel v.busy yet doing nothing??
Hmm..
Sounds contridicting ya??
But i am like that..
the more things i've to do,
the more i'll slack
jus nature........
how??
the tutorials are stacking up
crushing onto me soon..
what's worse is that the tutorials are not meant for me to do
the standard is too high
so i copied every solution!!!!!
Guess i'm gg fail my exams at this rate
and get kicked out of sch soon...
Why on earth did the lecturers set so hard tutorials
is more for themselves to do..
and not forgetting to cater to those china scholars
who's super good in everything
mugging in their hostiles everyday..
God Bless Me..

2005-10-03T21:36:00.000+08:00

Finally exams are over!!!
Really long since i blog la..
no time la
school so busy
But anyway, still enjoy myself though get quite tiring sometimes
Hmm...
Jus now a guy from engin wanna date me
Gosh..
though it's kinda predicted
i mean can feel that he kinda likes me
but the problem is i don really like him
Maybe jus frens ba
haha
so i rejected him
knowing i'm gg to break another heart
but what to do???
School so busy..
don really i have the time to date la
haha
but maybe 3 months from now
i announce that i'm attached again
haha
who knows??
the world is unpredictiable right??

Holidayz..

2005-09-19T13:32:00.000+08:00

Today is the start of my One week holiday..
not exactly one week though..
only 4 days..
And after holidays is dooms day..
cos all the tests will come!!!!!!
Gosh..
what kind of holiday is this???
Friday Physic test
MOnday Math test
Nxt friday, Material science and Nanotech test!!!!!!!!!
And lots of tutorials sitting there waiting to be completed!!
i jUS finish one paragraph of my english..
Ohh..
University life is more busy then i though..
one module is around the things i learn in 1 year in JC life!!

But nevertheless..
It's a holiday so i should get more rest..
Enjoy myself..
Sleepzz..
haha..

Thursday..

2005-09-01T11:23:00.000+08:00

Happy Teacher's Day to all teachers in the universe!!!!!!!!! haha..
Today is teacher's day..
Wonder if i will get any presents from my students..
Cos i'll be having lesson with him tonight.. haha:D
Ya.. Teachers are really a v.great job, don you think??
They teach us to think and discover the wonders of the earth..
This is especially true for science and Geography..
Without them, knowledge that people invented in the past is gonna be wasted..
Anyway.. they also inspired me in some wayz..
If not i won be teaching music..

Anyway, today i skipped the morning math lecture cos there's no piano lesson today..
If i were to go, then i've gotta wake up early and attend a 1hour lecture!! After that, i'll be free for5 hours!! not worth it!! so pon lecture and viewed webcast instead.. Just finish viewing webcast and i think it's just as good as the lecture itself cos it flim the lecture this morning and put it online.. Gonna go for lesson soon.. still thinking of what i should cook for lunch.. Bye..

Happy Birthday Mom..

2005-08-29T21:05:00.000+08:00

Today's mom's birthday..
Treat her to Ritz Carlton Hotel for dinner buffet..

Sick today..
Sick again..
Started with sorethroat..
Continued with flu..

Friday..

2005-08-26T13:43:00.000+08:00

Every day is a tired day.. Today's my worse day cos i have continuously 4 hours of lecture in the morning and 4 hours of lectures in the afternoon!! What's worse is that i gotta wake up at 6.30am in the morning.. haha.. actually already kinda used to it liao.. cos i've been waking up this early for 3 days, wed, thurs and friday.. so.. haha..

Life in university is unexpectedly busy.. i use to think university life is fun, happening and all that..But now i realise that it's tutorial after tutorial, lecture after lecture.. with little time for me to catch up on stuffs.. Hope that i could spend this weekend meaningfully.. cos when i have time, i tend to slack though i'm supposed to be v.busy.. haha.. if you guys don noe what i mean, then you're luckily cos i always feel that..

Gotta go for my phrase two of Friday, continous 4 hours lecture and could only finish lecture at 6pm!! i think san will noe what i mean cos she crash my lecture once on a friday.. haha.. bye bye..

hi..

2005-08-23T13:12:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone.. Really v.long since i've blog.. lazy ma..
Anyway, really quite busy recently.. Haiz..
School just started.. This week tutorial just started!!

Talking about tutorial, my math tutorial's tutor goes through the math questions faster than the speed of bullet train!! If he could go faster, he'll reach the speed of light!!!!!!!! Gosh!! Can you imagine?? He intend to go through one whole tutorial in less then one hour!! He failed though.. hehe.. so all he did is mumble to himself and write the solution on the white board.. My lecturer is from China, a young guy.. but i guess his math is real good.. cos he's teaching in a university!!

Haiz.. can you imagine that i've just started school.. The pace of rushing tutorials and catching up with lectures seems to be like i'm studying before exam!! Gotta finish a tutorial before gg for lesson if not it's impossible to know what the teacher's talking!!

Anyway, lets talk abit about sanz birthday.. i'm sure she wans to noe my thoughts about the "Event".. haha.. Actually, i've planned this plank for quite some time but i've gotta admit that i caused lots of inconvience to the people working at Pizza Hut so really sorry for all those trouble they've gotta go through.. though they may not read this msg, it's meant for them.. haha..
But it was fun no doubt.. The honey smells real good though it's kinda sticky!! haha.. i pity sanz.. gotta go through all these "sufferings" and "memoriable" moments.. But i promise that this year is the last time she's gotta go through this cos i realise i've caused much more unnecessary troubles for the cleaners than necessary.. Maybe next year i'll give her some not so nasty surprises and memories.. haha..
The Oreal cheese cake served in Secert Recipe was superb!! Thinking of those delicious cheesy cake makes me hungry!! haha..
This year, i guess sanz sweet and shine!! Wow.. could have voted her for superstar!! haha..
Going for lunch now.. bye bye.. hope that i'll update soon.. haha:p

Thursday..

2005-07-28T08:15:00.000+08:00

Thursday..
Feeling good cos have a superb bath early..
Try doing this..
Makes u feel fresher after a tiring sleep..
Going to be v.busy today..
Morning gotta go piano lesson..
After that gonna rush to NUS to do the maticulation..
Just imagine the queue..

Tomorrow gotta attend a orientiation breifing..
That means gotta go school again..

School...
The name gives me a mixed feeling..
Part of me wants to go back to school leaving my boring hoildays behind..
Another part of me don feel like gg school..
Continue to rot at home..
Fear, worry that i'll have to adapt to a new environment..
As well as the anticipation of going back to school..
Meeting new people..
Many guys(cos is in enginning ma)..
Haha..
Confused as always..

My world today

2005-07-25T14:01:00.000+08:00

Monday..
Bluez..
Bored in the morning..
All alone at home..
Cooked my own lunch, spaghetti..
Super delicious..
Feel better after the super superb lunch I have cooked for myself!!
Very happy now so do a bit of blog..
While listening to FM933..
Don worry peers..
Cos I’ve recovered from sore throat..
And with some exercises, I am going to be very strong:D
That’s all..

Friday

2005-07-23T10:03:00.000+08:00

Had a super great day at Orchard though I’m still having that stupid sore throat which is like forever!!! Haiz.. Went out with Eileen yesterday.. haha.. have been seeing her quite often lately.. maybe cos din get to see her last week..

Anyway, we meet at around 11.45am!! So early rite?? Na.. Since she stays in Bishan, so I took the train which goes past her house.. then we will be like making sure that we’re boarding the same train.. Wow.. Almost din see her since she’s waiting in a different cabin!! Haha.. Weird.. since we usually v.mo qi one.. everytime will somehow board the same cabin one.. haha.. but this time was different.. but nevertheless, I saw her when I peep out and so I walked over to where she’s boarding the train..

Sore throat so only ate Fish ball noodle (Again) for lunch.. haha.. Luckily I like fish balls.. after that, we walk around Taka.. Bored, we walk all the way to Somerset the warehouse there.. The Giodano there’s relatively cheaper then the rest.. So Eileen bought a racer back.. black one.. Same as mine!!! But mine is larger in size.. Gee.. After that walked to Centrepoint.. go rounds then realize nothing much.. Suddenly remember that Eileen need to buy highlighter which is sold only at Kino.. weird right?? So walked back all the way to Orchard, kino!!! LAME right?? After that, we walked wisma.. This time I bought a orange racer back from Istan.. haha.. color quite AA right?!
Sometimes I wonder how much do I know my friends.. haiz.. it seems that they are all living in their own world.. but I realize one thing, it’s not good to dig into others in the search to understand them.. As long as we feel comfortable with our friends, what more do we wan?

Sick..

2005-07-21T15:15:00.000+08:00

Hi.. updating again.. ya, today I’m sick.. not really that bad la.. but just a bit of a sore throat!! Because of this sore throat, I didn’t sleep well yesterday night!! Yesh.. it’s been long since I’ve sore throat and I don like sore throat!! Anyway..

Today went for piano lesson early in the morning.. yarn.. I don’t know what I should say about this teacher!! Frankly speaking, I don really like her cos she’s kinda naggy sometimes.. haiz.. She don’t really understands my point of view and she keep talking and talking about what I should do.. She wants me to do this table for her.. I did it without knowing what is it for.. anyway, she was quite pissed with me today but I don give a dam.. or do I?? Haizz.. I regretted learning piano in the first place!! So difficult!! Teaching diploma was worse!! A nightmare I could say.. must do this do that, buy this buy that!! Haiz.. As if I don have enough things to study in my university.. why go through all the trouble to learn??

Let’s not talk about her.. I went to visit a doctor after that at Yishun.. had a great time there cos after visiting the doctor, I walked around Yishun.. the place where I used to stay in.. I walk all the way to my primary school.. Wow.. Most of the shops there have changed.. It’s been long since I went there.. walking the path I used to walk to school brings back memories of the past.. didn’t go into the school though cos is like there’s a security guard guarding the main gate so no point.. I bought a kite.. cos my old one died.. had fish ball noodle soup at the coffee shop near my school.. quite cheap le.. only cost $2 per bowl.. Hard to find this price hur?? After lunch, I walked all the way to the park I used to train up for NAFA test and cross country.. A park that leaves lots of memories to me.. Still remember I used to go to this park during moon cake festivals to play with candles and lantern.. Hmm.. but I guess nothing can be the same forever.. things changes.. the park also changed.. they called it upgrading but I don really like the new look!! I miss the times where I used to jog there with another gal whom I don really know who she is.. she’s a fast runner and I usually likes to follow her speed, thinking it’ll be good to be faster then her.. haha.. history..

On my way home, on the train, I saw Cogi.. she’s just sitting next to me.. an empty chair in between.. I saw her and I hi but she ignored me( I don think is on purpose though..) so I slept through the journey and ignored her.. hmm.. it’s amazing how cold I’ve become hur?? I also don know why.. maybe cos I also don know what to talk to her about.. and it’s amazing that people usually don notice who’s sitting next to them(For Cogi’s case)!! The world has become such a cold place.. (Shivers)

halo

2005-07-15T15:36:00.000+08:00

Hi peers!! Long time no blog.. really super long hur?? Life have been quite still recently.. don know if u guys noe what I mean.. that means nothing much happened.. But recent mood is not that high.. don really know why also.. maybe is just because boredom cause depression ba.. haiz..

School will be opening soon.. But part of me don feel like going back to school cos is a whole new environment to adapt.. I’m slow in adapting to new environment.. I hate myself now for achieving nothing much during the holiday.. is like a life without purpose.. waiting for time to pass.. I just feel so old!!! Is like how good if I could just end life as soon as possible. Ya, life without a meaning is not worth living anyway.. so I gotta go and find myself some activities.. Maybe learn something new.. but is like only two weeks left, what’s there to pick up in 2 weeks?? So I told myself not to think too much and just concentrate on my teaching diploma.. But is real boring I tell u!! It just feels like everybody is going on with their own life but I’m still stuck at square 1. Hopefully when school reopens, I’ll find new goals to enrich my life..
Thinking of joining Aikido as CCA in NUS, a form of self defense.. Seems interesting.. Haizz.. just now went to take a look at the English Test and is dam hard la.. I hate this!! How I wish if I could just pass this test and don need to take what stupid English course.. A waste of time!!

Sharing of Joy..

2005-06-20T10:10:00.000+08:00

To San:
Ya, just wanna tell u that life may not be as complicated as u think.. so just think simple and you'll enjoy much more.. Stay cheerful always.. thinking too much only make urself feel out of control of ur life.. and thus feel uncertain.. Just hack all these thinking and smile.. And rem though i'm not physically with u, u've got my support!! I'm always there for u mentally..

Alright, Let me share some joy with u guys cos is like lately, many people is feeling gloomy..

First thing on the list is: Hui Ying's appeal is successful!! Hurray!! Finally, is rainbow after rain for her.. i guess.. i know she must be v.happy cos i can feel the joy in her sms when she inform me!! And i'm so happy for her!! Yeah.. she'll be in the same school as me! can go sch togather.. really hope that i can spend more time with her and get to understand her more..

Second thing on the list is: I've enjoyed myself truely this weekend!! Haha.. go out with weiyu, Mingping and HuiTing on sat to celeb weiyu and Mingping's birthday cos their birthday is just one day after another.. so qiao right?? Had some updating on my dear frens.. Ya, it's been long since i've meet Weiyu cos sort of lazy to contact and weiyu got a bf.. so she'll be more busy ya? but anyway, breakup recently which i think is a good decision.. cos is like my case i think.. haha..
Crapz lots with weiyu.. she can really crapz..

ON Sunday, i went for class outing.. wow..Really v.long never go for class outing.. for one reason or another.. haha.. had a great time togather sharing our latest gossips.. and what's make the highlight of the day is i thought of how to trick San on her birthday.. so san, beware!! This year's trick will be a promisingly memoriable trick(i hope and bet) wahaha:D Ya, went shopping with Eileen And Boonhui.. so they are so lame la.. or i should say i'm so lame la.. haha.. we crapz and laugh at a cotton wool which is so cute.. haha:D Eileen would noe what i'm talking about.. after that, i went pizza hut at Jurong East entertainment centre to have a super delicious dinner with my family.. cos is HAPPY FATHER'S DAY yesterday remember?? haha.. can life be even better?? i doubt..

Third thing on the list: I've been working on saterday and monday(Which is today) which means i've got more $$ to spend!! haha.. how i wish everyday is such happy day!! Quite impossible though cos in life, if everything goes on smoothly, i'll not make happy days as happy and sad days as sad... In ur sad days, try to think of the happy moments and hopefully, it'll brighten up ur days..

LAZY PIG COMING TO BLOG AGAIN!!

2005-06-17T13:49:00.000+08:00

hi.. lazy pig will become lazier when pigs knows that computers hang easily!! idiot!! just now i blog for so long.. write one long passage then com hang before i publish!! isn't it bad??

So one choice, i gotta write all the things all over again!! Well.. suffered from indigestion this week.. thanks to the super yummy dinner i had.. hai.. dirrhoea until siao ar!! The moment i eat something more then needed by my stomach, i'll suffer stomachage.. what is this?? I hate those temping food!! Just couldn't resist myself when it comes to food.. it's just too easy to overeat and get dirrhoea!! just tell me how to resist food?? haiz..

Met up with san yesterday.. had a great time though din do much that day.. ya, just went boonlay walk walk.. then went her house and sleepzz.. so pig rite?? haha.. but this are things which i enjoy.. listening to music, talking to her as we lay on the bed... try to catch a nap.. then took all the wuliao photo and had a great laugh over how silly we are.. Lame?? Yup.. We recall our secondary school times where we're so wuliao.. seriously v.bai chi!! haha.. lots of happy memories.. still rem last time when i hate Danny.. draw him on a cross with Debra lim(this one San hate).. haha.. v.childish.. But anyway, really long since i had such great laugh..Enjoyed myself truely.. haha..

Today teach my student in the morning.. two more students coming tonight.. Haiz.. tired..

Life after work..

2005-06-08T10:18:00.000+08:00

Really don noe wat to put for the title..

Hmm..since i've never blog for long time, i shall update alittle about my life after stopping work.. It's holiday!! haha.. Hmm.. initially, i planned to stay at home to practice piano everyday but i realise that i've been going out everyday since thursday(My last day at work).. hehe.. really gotta shut myself in my room and quite down to practice piano.. hoho..

Friday:
The first day i had my "Freedom".. haha.. i went out with my grandparents.. treat them for lunch cos is like never really treat them for a good meal since i work.. so treated them Crystal Jade.. Hmm.. don noe why, now adays i seem to be v.picky about food.. Hmm.. not really picky la, but just that set a high standard for what i think as good food.. I guess i've been eating too much Crystal jade ba.. the la mian doesn't appeal to me as much as it used to be.. but i still love the Xiao long Bao there!! Yum yum.. soft and thin skin with tender meat and juice or some call it soup inside the bao!!! the though of the taste already made my saliva drip.. haha.. Superb!!

Saterday:
Nothing much.. gotta go for piano lesson in the afternoon!! Spoils my Saterday!!

Sunday:
Went to Eileen house play games.. haha.. v.fun la.. but the fingers v.tired after pressing for like one hour?? Anyway, we initially say go shopping one.. but is kind of Singapore Great Sale.. Many People sale.. haha.. so we decided not to squeeze with the crowd... Went to her house for afew time already so is like i already noe my way there.. hehe.. love to sleep on her bed but just that her pillow don smell as nice as mine.. hehe.. and mind you guys, is this smell that puts me to sleep every night.. this smell is actually a mixture of my siliva, body smell, hair smell plus armpit smell..Oops.. haha..

Monday:
Monday was a great day.. never feel the monday bluez i used to feel.. i just feel great knowing that i don need to drag myself to work.. but i dream of myself working at night.. wierd right?? Hmm.. when i'm still working at kiomkee, i never dream of myself in the office working.. and yet only after i quit and stop working did i dream of such things.. haha.. Anyway, i went for a good morning jog.. realise my stamina drop drastically!! from the 8 stadium rounds to around 6 rounds!! Oh my god!! i've grown fats.. Lipids!! Yucks.. but is alright.. cos now, i have time to shade away some of this unwanted lipid and change it to muscles in no time!! Wahaha..

In the afternoon, i went to collect my A level cert... after collecting, went to crap with my dearest bookshop uncle and aunty!! Wahaha.. they were v.nice you noe? Help me photocopy my cert for free!! Hmm.. we could almost talk about anything on earth!! Really miss them sometimes.. cos last time i used to collect notes for lecture from them as i was the Chemistry Rep then.. So more contact with them and our friendship grows.. hehe.. amazing right? The Chicken rice store's aunty and snacks aunty is oso my fren!! wahaha.. make friends with such people?? haha.. the chicken rice aunty v.nice le.. she let me fry egg myself when there's not many students.. Hmm.. tried to go and find my chemistry teacher but guess she's not around.. After that, i went to Sim Lim square to buy my NEW toy!! MP3 player form Creative!! haha.. now i got this to occupy my time cos i can explore it..

Tuesday:
Went to Sentosa with san.. The weather was great!! i love the sea breeze.. we had quite a share of fun as we lay down under the sun(Covered by crouds).. We had a good chat..Hmm.. lately like grow old already.. prefer to chat then go shopping.. prefer to laze around.. haha.. like Garfield.. Ya, anyway, after that, we did some young activities..we went for canoeing!! It's been long since i canoe..but canoeing is fun if i could minus off the muscle cramp that will follow the next day.. hehe.. Haha.. we half way jump boat!! Then is like Floating in the middle of the sea!!so fun.. but then san could get up the boat after that.. so she's gotta swim all then way back to shore!! Wahaha:p anyway, it's my idea la.. cos i noe i confirm can get back to the boat ma..Wahaha..Had lots of fun playing and relaxing in the sea.. time really flies.. soon, i gotta go home le.. so head back home!! Btw, san plan an outing(coming soon) to book a hut at sentosa for one night.. so hope that it'll work out this time.. hehe..

BOom..

2005-06-02T12:46:00.000+08:00

Today is my last day.. hmm.. Rather okie..normal feeling ba.. nothing much..maybe is cos i've already did all my mental preparation needed ba.. well.. in the afternoon after lunch, i took photographs of all my "collegue".. haha.. jus now snap a pic of my boss sleeping too!! hehe.. so cute.. anyway, i remembered that there is this book whose one sentence caught my attention..An end to something is a start for a new thing.. How true is it indeed.. the end of school holiday oso marks the start of a new school term.. the end of my this job also means the start of a new life at home practicing my piano.. Thats life.. never ending.. That's why there is no such thing as THE END! how can things end? even dead ple may have a new life in another world.. an unknown to us still..

1June

2005-06-01T13:10:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. count down.. one more day towards freedom!! Yeash..
Today, my new "replacement" came.. taught her all the things she need to know.. wondering if she understands what i'm saying.. haha.. but anyway, i'll miss this place..

Count down..

2005-05-31T09:34:00.000+08:00

Count down.. two more days to go before i officially leave my position as admin clerk..

Yesterday:
Went to watch Madagascar with Eileen!!Wahaha.. the show was quite lame i should say.. not much content though.. a good show to just have a good laugh and enjoy.. haha.. Eileen just came back from Japan on Sunday.. Wow.. know wat?? the toilet bowls in japan is soOO interesting.. Heard that there is this toilet bowl which has a few buttons to press.. on of them spray water at your Butt after you've finish business(Big bussiness of course).. haha:D So cool right?! Auto-wash for butt..Hmm.. how nice if i own one too!! hahaha.. and there is this squart toilet that when you step on it, it will produce sound of water(u guys should noe what sound i'm talking about right??) haha.. so cute!! Guess i would like to go there one day to see for myself.. haha.. go all the way to see their toilets!! people must think i'm crazy.. and i'm one.. haha..

Today:
As i go to work, i saw this crowld of birds(Sparrow) flying freely in the sky.. how much i envy them.. i wonder if there's such word as sadness in their dictionary.. they just wonder around.. gliding in the air.. simple but wonderful.. i could sense their freedom.. they fly all the way from another country to Singapore in search of warmth.. I wonder what they will feel when some of them died on their way here because of one reason or another.. cos they usually fly in crowds.. what will they feel when one of their family members die? or got eatten up by eagle?? will they feel sad? do birds have feelings like humans?why do they seem so happy all the time? or is it that i don understand them? their world..bird brains are famous for being small.. but does it means that they have no thinkinG? is their world just happiness? Definately no politics like us.. simple minds is much better then complicated minds.. cos they will not think of evil things to harm each other..alright, gotta go back to work..

Thoughts..

2005-05-30T12:57:00.000+08:00

Monday is the day when i usually blog cos during the weekends, i'm able to live a different life.. a life away from daily wake up 7am, work till 5pm..go home and rest then practice piano till 9pm.. or later sometimes..then watch that ghost story(v.lame) haha.. Good summary skills hur?

Alright.. Saterday was a great day!! Yesh.. i gotta work in the morning and go for Piano lesson in the afternoon(As usual).. After that, my family had a BBQ section!! i love the kids(My parent's friend's children).. they are lovely.. they had grown up quite alot.. i used to play with them but i realise i've aged.. i no longer have the mood and strength to play with them..Tell u guys one thing, the kids and more engertic then us!! they can really jump and scream around non-stop!!
Had a great chat with san instead.. a peaceful night.. though BBQ was hot.. u know.. the fire and smoke.. i love the BBQ mushmellow!! crispy outside and melted inside!! simply lovely.. But u gotta BBQ ur hand togather with the mushmellow too.. tat's the think i don like.. v.hot!!

Sunday
Went out with my collegues.. this is the first time i go out with them.. we went to Orchard to check out the Singapore Great Sale!! haha.. sales everywhere..People everywhere.. but most of the things sold don attract me.. cos to me,Singapore Great Sales is not as great as it seems.. the prices are marked up before hand and then give discounts.. what is this?? cheating?! alright, no doubt that some of the things are cheaper..but when i see the place so crowded, i don feel like squeezing.. Sales oso means longer queue for both trying on clothes and paying money!! Furthermore, in a sales, sometimes u couldnt find the size that suits u.. cos i'm the average size kind.. so usually all these size(Esp Jeans!!) will be sold out before the sales.. so no point!! Why make the unnessary trouble to go and squeeze into the crowd and couldnt get anything in the end..Plus risking pickpockets!!! i son see any point why ple should be so crazy about sales(no offence here cos i'm the minority who thinks this way) Anyway, after saying so much,i got myself a penguin tee from bosinni!! haha:p and had a great day shopping with my collegues though all they buy is food basicly.. haha..

And lastly to San:
After reading your blog, i had some thoughts and would like to share with you.. Don noe how u feel this moment when you're reading this blog.. it may be irrevelent cos this kinda things is a moment thing.. but anyway, i read ur blog at this moment and this very moment i wanna tell u my thoughts so.. haha.. u think most of ur frens has moved on except u but i guess every one feels that way.. i oso feel that u've grown up alot during this few months when u go to the society to work.. isn't it?? Ya, letting go is hard but this is life.. people come, people go.. i realise that there is no such thing as forever..even if u stay the same, you cannot prevent others from moving on.. so i advise u to move on and catch up with others..i guess sometimes we people have their darkess moments and this does not mean most of us live in darkness.. haha.. once you've straighten out ur thoughts, everything is fine.. life goes on.. yes, everyone wear mask but have u asked why..
My advise to u is leave the person who detoriates your self confidence cos that person is actually killing u indirectly..but why does he wanna do that?? cos he himself lack self confidence..cos he thinks he's not good enuff for u..tat's why he wanna push u down to make himself look good.. but love should not be like that.. it's about bosting ur self confidence and not detoriating it..and if you think look can make one feel confident, u may be half correct..but another half is appreciating who you are yourself.. think of your good points..learn to love urself .. What happens to those who don look beautiful?? Do u think they don deserve to be loved?? Do u think all those who don have good looks will be in depression and don live a good/normal life?? think about those disabled.. why can they be so strong even though they are so ugly?? they are in a disadvantage compared to us.. does it means that they are not happy?? NO!! They can still be happy so don blame urself for what u are..how u look.. u cannot change it! being thiner does not means prettier..
It's no doubt determination is important for things to succeed, but without confidence, u won have determination..the believe that u'll succeed is also v.impt..Hmm.. i don noe if these words will help, but this is just my thoughs..u may say i don understand(which i should say maybe) cos i don have a BF, but if love is so hurting and painful, i advice u to give up..

The End..(Do expect me to blog less often after 2nd June)

My Final Decision...

2005-05-25T13:44:00.000+08:00

Monday...
Monday was a public holiday but gotta attend a piano lesson on that day.. as usual, got scolding from my teacher..Hmm.. feeling quite sad after tat..She was saying that i'm not serious enuff..after thinking for the whole night, i decide to give up on my piano..it was a tough decision i guess.. don noe why?? i feel that i'm so weak!! hai..

Tuesday..
The next morning, i told my mom that i wanna stop the stupid lesson.. my mom of course disagree and say that it's a good opportunity and it'll be v.wasteful if i just give up like that.. but i don noe what to do.. i'm confused.. part of me wanna give up and the another part wans to continue.. how??? i don noe why but i just couldn't concentrate during lesson.. simple grade 1 piece, i could make mistakes in my sight reading!!! And diploma standard is sight reading a grade 6 piece!!!! Oh my GOD!!! this is going to kill me!! why learn piano in the first place?? i'm afraid.. uncertain of which way to go.. so i meet up with san to see if she's any good solution/suggestion..had a nice chat with her...I guess she's grown up quite a lot in terms of thinking cos her analysist is somewhat similar to my moms.. haha:p but anyway, she has some good points.. convinced, i'll be quiting my job asap to concentrate in my teaching diploma.. seriously, i like to teach piano.. it's been my childhood ambition.. i donno why.. but i lack the self-confidence to believe that i'm a good teacher.. i'm afraid tat i'll fail my teaching diploma next year.. but anyway, life is a rollercoaster.. who've not failed before?? Many famous businessmen and scientist failed many times before they succeed.. so why should i be afriad of failing??? Anyway, now i still have time to buck up before exam so i guess i'll give it a try.. it's the fighting spirit, how ple stands up after failing that really matters.. not the results..

Today Wednesday..
I've informed Winston about my resignation. Typed my resignation letter already..But I'll really miss this place very much.. i simply love this place.. i could still recall the first time i come in.. the table was small, the outside was factory!! i was so scared at first.. the impression was like will this be the place i'm working in?? Did i go to the wrong place?? haha.. as first i expect it to be an office buliding, clean and bright..but here is nothing like that.. i got used to this place soon cos of the food.. haha;p then after working for like a few weeks, i've conflict with my lao ban liang.. i almost wanted to quit then..but what keep me here was the challenge to win her.. to win over her heart and i did it!! Now, we no longer feel as tense as we used to be..i started to accept her and i guess she's starting to accept me too.. we live in "harmony".. haha.. i've learned alot from Winston, my supervisor.. he taught me about life, decision making, business, abit of accounts and his experiences.. my way of thinking did change alittle.. haha.. i'll definately miss the production ple.. we had lunch togather everyday.. talk alot of topics.. laughed.. shared fruits.. ya, these people are friendly and nice.. i could complain to them about my disappoinments and anger(that time quarrel with lao ban liang).. they'll just listen and give some suggestions..haha.. though working alone in the office may sometimes feel bored, but i'll just on some music and entertain myself.. or go to the production section and get something to eat.. haha..

Another Day...

2005-05-18T10:12:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a super fun day!! haha..cos i went out after work with my clique.. hehe.. it's been long since the four of us meet up togather for a nice dinner.. We went for Fish & Co.. i couldn't say the food there was especially good cos i expected more.. the seafood there wasn't as fresh as i've expected.. gosh.. the meat of the prawn sticks to the shell!! What kind of prawn is this?? Lousy.. but nevertheless, the taste was quite alright la.. though i don think it's worth the price.. The atmosphere there was quite good though.. cooling and relaxing.. a good place to unwine and chat with frens.. We catch up with each other's life and crack some jokes about yingz new super cool jap cum indian boyfriend!! haha.. had alittle bit of alcohol and was kinda high.. then chong tiang msg me and i finally had the courage to tell him straight tat i don wanna patch.. haha.. So now, we're officially over!! Yeah.. but we're still friends.. haha..

After dinner, we walked all the way to Orchard.. though it sounds far, but it's actually quite near if you're walking with a friend and chatting.. me chatted with ping throughout and sing along.. think she's too much alcohol la.. crazy liao.. we laugh and laugh till stomach pain!! Gosh!!Reach hereen, took neoprint!! wow.. lately love to take neoprint.. v.fun.. the machine we use is the we step then it take one le.. haha.. but think the co-ordition is not there cos most of the time, no one step the pedel on the floor.. haha.. cos my leg is long ma, so i step quite alot le.. haha:D had so much fun..the shops in Orchard really close quite early le..it's like thes shops close at around 9pm.. so after dinner when we reach there, most of the shops are already closed.. so how could S'pore attract tourist like this??? i wonder..
Reach home quite late.. bath then sleep liao.. kinda sleepy today morning when i wake up too and still sleep till now..i really envy san!! don need to wake up so early..

slacking..

2005-05-17T13:51:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. had my lunch already and is slacking.. don really noe what to do.. afternoon had fried chicken wings, some vegi, potato and egg.. forget to bring my apple so went down to buy pineapple.. haha.. the pineapple downstairs is really super sweet!! Yummy.. hope that i'll forget to bring apple more often.. haha:D lao ban liang is sleeping soundly and me?? just couldn't fall asleep so come blog..but realise tat no one is around to chat with me so come here to chat with myself lor..

Yesterday after work, went to catch kingdom of heaven with yingz.. din have much time for dinner cos is kinda rush..bought some bread then went for the movie(^o^) the show not bad la.. just that got abit violent la.. bloody i should say.. but i think the lead actor, donno wat name, is super handsome!!! haha..he's got the natural leadership look.. the show quite long so after the show went home le.. heard tat she'll be gg Australia soon (which she claims to be 99% confirm).. hmm.. really donno wat to say to her though deep down inside, i feel sense of loss..haha.. the feeling that she'll be so far away..but if she's able to pursue her interest, then i guess it'll be better off for her and i really hope that she'll be able to adapt to Perth soon..Hmm.. maybe can go visit her during holidays.. Anyway, must really meet her out more often...hehe..

Yesterday chatted with Kok Tian through e-mail all day cos i was kinda quite free.. and i realise tat he still like me.. why??? i just don understand.. ya, just wanna tell him that i think it'll be better if we're just friends.. i don mind to be his fren but why go into BGR?? No point.. you get what i mean??

Yesterday, i was chatting with Winston about when and wat guys suit me (cos he caught me chatting with kok tian).. he was saying guys of the same age as me don suit me cos they are all too childish and i think is quite true.. he says tat girls should find a partner at least the 2 years older then the thinking will be more pei he..and he say tat in this working society, there is more bad guys then good guys cos i told him that i believe tat there's more good guys then bad guys.. so i was wondering if it's true.. And in the movie, kingdom of heaven, i see both the cruel and good side of man.. yes.. i believe we're all born with a good heart.. maybe is the circumstances and enviro in which ple grow up shapes them.. the experience they had..Hmm.. i've argued this topic with mingping b4 and i think we had different opinions.. haha..

Now, today morning!! today moring i've an inspiration and came out with this super good business idea.. but cannot say here cos is confidential!! haha.. Hmm.. lately, i've been trying to gear out some business ideas.. you noe?? dreams to be rich someday... to be a boss and let money work for me instead of me working for money, becoming slaves of money which majority of the population in the world is doing!! i wan to be out of this cycle!! i wan to run a business and let the business give me money..but then, coming back to reality (which is cruel) i don have the money to start a business.. i choose the wrong course in university.. the course i choose will lead me to a good worker instead and i really hate the though of working hard for money in the future!!! For example, now, i receive so tinny winnie amount of money.. who the rich could create in just a few hours.. buy and sell stocks.. haiz.. wat to do?? how am i going to escape from this cycle (Known as the Rat Race in the book Rich Dad, Poor Dad)??

hi!!

2005-05-16T10:01:00.000+08:00

Ya, guess all of u think the way i think.. And i would like to announce tat i don wanna patch up with chong tiang..Sometimes in life, if there is a chance and u miss it, it's gone!! And i wanna tell him tat if he does not noe how to treasure a gal like me, then too bad.. i gave him a chance which i don think i sld in the first place.. but he gave up tat chance and there's nothing i can say about it.. he should have realise tat i've rejected lots of guys and he's really luckily that i'm willing to give it a try.. but too bad la.. i'm not a doll.. wan me tat time then ask me out, don wan me then just say wanna break.. sort of fed-up by this kind of things..

I could still recall back the last time we went out.. i just don feel right..u noe.. got this feeling that he don like to go out with me.. cos tat time i'm meeting my parents for dinner so must leave ard 5pm.. throughout he was complaining that he's tired and wanna go home and sleep!!! gosh.. what the hell is this?? don wanna meet me then it's fine.. cos i can meet other frenz instead.. but meet me out then say wanna go home shortly?? i was quite pissed off by him then.. and when he mention tat he wanna break, i was like tat's wat i wan too.. haha.. alright alright.. enuff of him..

Yesterday, initially gg out with san and ying but sudden change of plan cos they feel that it'll rain ytd but i guess they are wrong.. but anyway, this shows how unpredictable life can be sometimes..

Here i Come again...

2005-05-13T09:08:00.000+08:00

Halo everyone.. ya, know wat? 2days ago chong tiang ask me if i wanna patch up.. hehe.. i've been thinking for quite some time.. tat's why i only blog today.. and i've come to a conclusion.. guess wat's my conclusion?? please vote.. if you think i'll patch up with chong tiang, vote 1 and if you think i'll not patch with chong tiang, vote 2.. hehe.. those who guess correctly will get a ice-cream cone treat from McDonalds.. hehe.. please tag your answer by 15th May..

Another Monday..

2005-05-09T13:17:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i do wonder if it is safe to blog here.. telling the whole world wat i thinks.. Hmm.. someone who don noe you can read about your thoughts and secrets.. i think it's just so unfair.. wat if your someone use this info against you?? tat's why i did consider giving up my blog..but anyway, here i am again.. haha..

Mother's day:
Great dinner at Owen, unique Seafood!! Yum Yum:P Celebrated on Saterday instead..
Brought mom a super yummy Cheese cake form the factory next to my office.. haha..

Sunday(actual Mother's day):
Slack at home and had a super comfortable day.. din do much.. watch VCD and tian long Ba bu.. then SleepZzz.. though is like slacking the whole day, but i really enjoyed myself.. even more then going shopping.. guess tat's the feeling San had oso ba.. haha.. having some valuable time with my family is better then going out all the time..I really enjoy sleeping:D cos i feel that my body is so fresh after i wake up.. got this feeling of charging up after draining all my energy in work, piano, going out and things like tat.. i feel that my body is healing.. spirtually and internally.. don noe how to describe.. but the feeling is good!! you noe like feeling v.strong and healthy after waking up form sleep.. haha..

ya, i do agree with san and do prefer a simple day enjoying and taking notice of small things around us then a busy day shopping or things of tat sort.. haha;p watching the cloud, the rain, the sun rise, sun set.. Listening to the birds singing, breathing in fresh air, cooling air after rain.. feeling life in your body.. Manyt of these simple things are neglected and seldom appreciated but if u take the time to do simple things like tat, u may find urself v.contended and relaxed.. i don noe if ple out there noes wat i mean but i do noe wat i mean myself..haha..

Life

2005-05-04T09:49:00.000+08:00

i felt quite sad after reading san and ping's blog..

ya, firstly, i realise yingz is leaving for sure.. i don noe wat to say but i'm really v.sad and will definately miss her alot... hmm.. life is so unpredictable.. when i think back to secondary school days, i never think of such things.. i was v.innocent back then.. now tat i or i should say all of my frenz face the cross road in life, i realise that life is not really the same as what i've though back then.. we meet mistakes, people and many things that changes our life, our thoughts and our value..San is right, after she leaves for her studies, life will be never the same as before.. but i sincerely wish her all the best and that she'll adapt to life there soon.. i noe that it'll be v.hard for her and i really admire her courage to face reality.. think i'm not half as brave as her to go oversea to study.. in the search for a better education and future.. to seek her dreamz.. maybe this is life.. my mom once told me life is all about leaving and meeting new people..no one around you will last forever.. even husband and wife.. one will definately leave(Die) first leaving the other one behind.. haiz.. a really sad fact of life.. she also tell me to be strong when face with problems.. nothing is worth ending one's life.. life is always pre-destinated to have a fresh start after a failure.. hmm..

Another thing is tat ping is ill and i suddenly realise tat all along, i've been taking my frens for granted..think is quite serious this time.. form what her blog says.. hmm.. really start to worry for her..hope that she'll recover fast cos she's still young.. life is fagile.. no one noes what will happen tomorrow..

hmm.. think the storm is heading my life soon..

The Break up

2005-05-04T08:58:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, 4th May marks the day where i break up with chong tiang.. It comes rather a pleasant surprise.. haha.. yesterday, i'm quite busy at work la.. he msg me to say tat he wanna break up.. at first i felt rather shock.. hmm.. after thinking for a while, i was thinking, isn't this wat i wans oso?? haha.. and my ans is yes.. ya, i've made a mistake to accept him in the first place.. cos i never love him.. i was thinking of just trying out wat BGR is all about.. out of pure curiousity.. haha.. and who noes wat will happen.. maybe we work out le.. but after trying, i think both of us realise tat we didn't work out as expected.. haha.. both of us still prefer our past freedom.. i guess.. so i think it's better off if we're frens.. yup.. he's right.. i actually prefer to be frens than something more.. i think he feels it too.. And we've agreed to be good frenz anyway.. haha.. Frankly speaking, i've always treat him as my fren even when he's my bf then.. haha..

Yup, i do learn an important lesson and tat is never accept a guy unless you really likes him.. if not, you'll regret.. at least i end early.. i couldn't imagine what will happen after it drags on for long.. both of us will feel more hurt.. Another lesson i learn is to take things slowly.. understand each other first before going into BGR..a relationship that starts from friendship is better then going straight to BGR even if the guy has feeling for u.. third lesson, never take ur frens for granted.. i don noe why, but after this, i realise that i used to take many things for granted.. and i wanna say this, never do that.. i think this time i did take him for granted cos he's the one who jo me anyway.. haha.. but i learn this time.. nxt time if i've another bf and i'm serious, i noe wat to do.. wahaha:P i think a relationship is all about respect, love and the feeling.. haha.. i guess i've no feeling for him in the first place.. tat's why it failed..

Busy day..

2005-04-29T16:50:00.000+08:00

Wanted to blog for the whole day but don really have the time to do so.. haha.. real busy today.. but anyway..had great fun doing my work!! hehe..

Ya, yesterday went pizza hut..had a great time with San.. we taked about lots of stuffs.. hmm..think she has really learned a lot in her J??? haha..forget le la.. but i oso learned alot from wat she told me about politics.. i think i'm so luckily to just learn politics without experiencing it.. cos is really scarry.. think i'm luckily tat there's not much politics in my company.. small company ma.. but i oso learned other things here..

Hmm.. during the dinner, something unpleasent happened and i really feel bad abt it.. i think i shall not comment much..

ya, i'm gg to get myself a bike!! something i wanted for a super long time but haven gotten.. haha..and think i'm gg change plan le!! Yesh.. the new plan got free incoming.. haha.. and i'll be waiting for his call tonight.. hehe.. tonight will crap longer cos he'll be at home.. use home phone then hp bill not so ex ma.. haha..sometimes really wonder if things will work out cos is like seldom get to see each other.. but i think it's the though tat counts ma.. hehe:D

Life??

2005-04-28T08:59:00.000+08:00

haha.. really don noe wat to put for my title le..this one sld be fine ba?? haha.. ya anyway, sometimes life is like a small boat in a big ocean.. at least i think so.. why?? sometimes in life, we're going smoothly while sometimes there are waves which changes us.. changes our way of thinking, our direction, our emotion and bla bla bla.. ya, if this sea of ours remain forever calm, how boring life would be?? just like now, my boat is traveling in the calm ocean waiting for wind.. so it feels like i'm still at the same spot where i stopped days ago after storm..in some part or moment of our life, it's like traveling in a thunderstorm.. we experience ups and downs.. but without these thunderstorms to add color to our life(Rainbow after rain) our life will forever be v.peaceful.. i should say bored.. Sianz... haha.. don noe if u guys noe wat i'm talking abt, but hopefully someone out there will get it.. haha..

Wow, if u think carefully, u'll be surprised how nature is so closely related to us..yet many people(we humans) take nature for granted and destroy nature for their selfish purpose..

Monday bluezzzz...

2005-04-25T09:08:00.000+08:00

hai.. early in the morning wake up so sian.. feel like lying on my dearest bed forever and ever until i'm wide awake.. hmm.. kind of moody this moring and think my mom realise it too.. hehe.. ya, my grandma this moring talk and talk about wat health and stuff.. so bored!! don she realise tat no one is really interested in wat she's talking about?? though she's not really shooting at me but my grandpa, but i still bu shuang cos i not in a mood to listen to her complains, Q!!! so i say next time she should go downstairs to exercise instead of at home cos the air is fresher downstairs and the real reason is tat downstairs got lots of san ba to crap with her!! then my ears don need to suffer.. at least can have a peaceful breakfast!!

hmm.. yesterday went out with my eileen.. hehe.. had a great time with her!! we crap alot and always manage to have a good laugh.. haha.. really enjoy going out with her.. we went shopping until we v.tired!! had a great day..

Saterday...

2005-04-23T09:57:00.000+08:00

Today early in the morning need to drag myself to work!! how i wish i don need to work and have salary.. haha.. kinda busy this morning cos yesterday, my office's computer monitor spoil yesterday.. then winston went to buy and the invoice was stacked up till only after a new monitor arrived.. wow.. this monitor was good.. v.big..last time is 15 inch now is 17 inch screen.. haha..now quite free after working from 8.30am to 10am.. haha.. the bust period for today..

ya, yesterday went out after work.. had a nice time though gotta wait for like 3hrs!! haiz.. he army don let him out.. wat to do?? haha.. but anyway, i don really blame him la.. is army's fault.. he cannot control ma.. but anyway, think of punishment for him liao.. hehe.. guess wat? haha.. hopefully he remembers.. haha:p Hmm.. i think though he don have the look, but he's kind of cute.. haha..

This morning as i was on my way to work, i was asking myself this qn, wat's love?? why does we, human beings, seek love even though the ending may be curel and hurting?? Is there such things as forever love?? i'm not sure.. maybe.. why is tat in chong yao's stories, love is always pain first, even if the ending is gg to be a good one?? is love really so painful?? i don noe..

2005-04-21T11:27:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. i am uncertain of how to balance my life between love, friendship, studies and work etc.. i'm just too busy sometimes tat i feel tat i let chong tiang down.. hmm.. my life is so packed with too many things.. in the morning, i need to work.. which is fine cos he oso in army ma.. then after work, i need to practice my piano if not my skills would not improve.. i really wanna leave some time for him but is just so hard.. hai.. but anyway, we still do manage to talk on the phone at night for like half an hour or so.. hehe.. seriously, i really need to learn more about him.. i like him of course but just tat i'm still quite unsure if this will work out.. we'll sms each other durning work.. hmm.. he's really v.free in army i guess.. he's now in Stagmont camp, beside CCKS.. my secondary sch..

Alright, since san is so interested to noe abt him, i shall tell you guys more.. I noe him through PS(photography society).. he only joined in J2.. At first din really notice him until tat June where we have a PS camp to train our juniors.. During tat camp, one of the nights, he and his frens are playing cards so we joined in and had a good talk.. tat's the first time i realise him.. He's a nice guy, v.crappy and easy to be ard..tat's my first impression of him..

After the camp, then we din contact anymore.. until one time he donno msg me to inform me abt this outing i think.. couldn't really rem wat.. but anyway, i replied him and we crap through sms.. After tat day, sometimes he call me to crapz.. wow, can really crap for hrs.. then time is somewhere ard mid year exam.. so during my mid year, i did badly so i told him tat i need to conc on my studies first and should crap less often.. and he did respect me i guess..

Then time flies.. until lately, we meet up go for the career fair.. hmm.. then went out with him for movie..which is just last sunday.. basicly, tat's our story.. nothing v.farrie tale..haha.. maybe nxt time will have more farrie tale stories to share.. so do continue to read my blog ya!! haha...

THE END:)

19 April, 2005

2005-04-19T15:59:00.000+08:00

Today marks the day where i'm no longer single.. haha.. me now attached.. Oh.. my first bf is, Da da da deng.. Chiong Tiang.. hmm.. i cant imagine wat life will be like after i've a bf.. haha..

Ya, today, i took half day leave to go for an audition for a music teacher post.. wierd rite?? haha.. but anyway, had quite some fun using the new tech where the keyboard is attached to the computer.. the music school is named musicTEC and is at Novena, Goldhill Center.. in the morning b4 the audition, i went for a swim.. after audition gotta chong to work cos only take half day leave ma.. bought one bread fm breadtalk and tat's my lunch.. quite hungry now.. somemore, later i'll be gg jogging with my dad.. gosh..

I think my boss is really a nice guy le.. he's kind hearted and not caculative.. think my lao ban liang is really v.v.v.lucky to have him as her husband.. he's oso v.good to his wife, never scold her b4 even though she's sometimes v.fan.. haha.. so sweet right?? then he always sponsor lao ban liang go Genting gamble one.. Hmm. if my future husband is as nice as him.. how good..

wat to do??

2005-04-18T13:23:00.000+08:00

oh mi god.. haiz.. know wat? chiong tiang ask me to be his gf.. wat now?? i still unsure abt wat i feel towards him tat's why i say i need time to consider first.. haha.. hmm.. he no gf b4.. neither do i.. haha..

monday again..

2005-04-18T08:46:00.000+08:00

Another routine week is gg to start again.. hai.. but anyway, had a great weekend:) Da Da.. everytime have great weekend usually follow by routine weekdays..but anyway, just wanna share abt wat i do durning my weekends..

Saterday..
Nothing much.. Went to work in the morning.. then go home to sleep.. after tat had piano lesson.. after tat meet my parents for dinner.. haha.. i ate lots for dinner!! Yum Yum!! but it also means tat i'll have to run lots of rounds for the additional fats i put up... Oops.. think i really need to go for a good swim or jog today after work..

Sunday..
In the morning, initially wanna meet san go kbox but change of plan cos think she's tired and need some time alone to have a good rest at home.. so hope that she feel refresh today ba.. So as usual, wake up early in the morning.. went to the "New" church.. the church i've neve been to.. haha.. then in the afternoon, went to catch the pacifier with chiong tiang.. he treat me watch movie so.. haha..at first i wanna pay for my ticket one but he insist so just let him treat lor.. anyway, guys should treat gals movies right.. but i'll insist i pay myself nxt time..cos this is the first time i have movie with him ma.. so let him treat lor.. the movie quite lame.. but nice la.. had a great ending..as expected..haha.. went to walk ard bugis after movie.. i ask him to accompany me go see the music books.. haha.. Ya, ytd got two parents asked me to teach piano.. i so happy.. haha.. cos i need to look for students.. but qouted quite a low price.. tok to my teacher at nite then realise tat i qoute the price is really too low... tok to her for like one hr or so..haha.. sleep late at ard 11pm.. ya, ytd oso called yingz.. haha.. v.long never tok to her liao but nevertheless had a great chat on the phone.. but then my stupid brother la, tok abit then jo me watch tian long ba bu.. so gotta hang up fast.. haha.. we tok abt lots of things.. from studies all the way to future.. really had a great time.. think i sld meet her up sometime to crap.. haha:D

haloha..

2005-04-15T09:26:00.000+08:00

here i am, posting again.. today morning.. nothing much but late for work for 5mins cos tat stupid bus don wanna come.. haha:D ya, think two days ago, i went mingping hse.. then we suan ming with poker cards..the poker card goes like this.. you must think of a person you like and see if you're meant to be togather..here is the spade king(rep the guy you like), spade A(rep the guy's heart), heart queen(rep you) and heart A(Rep ur heart)..don noe if you guys play this b4..but think it's quite accurate le.. haha.. the card say me and daniel is not meant to be together.. and i believe in that too.. haha.. noe wat? there's an obstical(Rep by a no. card) and woman(rep by a queen) between us!! Hmm.. still though he's a gay?? how come got girl btw us?? haha.. but anyway, beside me there's a king but the king is not him.. so i tried another guy..
i tried chiong tiang.. haha.. know wat!! the position is like this.. spade king, spade A, heart A, heart Queen.. don really noe wat this means.. but most prob is tat our hearts are togather but physically separated.. haha.. the best is that the king and queen is togather.. that means tat the two person is meant to be togather.. no time to try kar gim.. cos late liao, must hurry home for dinner.. haha.. maybe nxt time i try already then tell you guys the results..

My Routine Life..

2005-04-12T09:15:00.000+08:00

This is the reason why i din blog often for so long..
Cos my life is like so routine.. wat to write?? Everyday is like wake up from a wonderful dream feeling sian to start another day..another routine day.. i still remember tat time when i ask huiying about working life and her immediate answer is bored.. she complained tat life is so routine and things.. tat time i don really understand wat she means but now i do.. i really fully feel wat she felt then.. but wat to do?? all jobs are like tat.. haha..

So i was thinking of what to blog this morning on my way to work and i realise that there's nothing special.. haha.. everyday is wake up, brush teeth, change cloths, eat breakfast, hurry for the train, hurry for the bus and 'pop' i'm in my office again!! haha.. these kind of routine work makes my readers fall asleep so i was thinking why bother to write out.. haha.. nothing special.. think everyone is like this anyway.. Life after work is abit better.. there are a few activities like go jogging, go swimming, sonna, meet mingping to play b.ball, sometimes go out watch movie with fren and have a dinner outside.. but other days, is sleep and eat dinner at home.. after tat watch TV.. now is go home sleep then practice my piano.. after tat, i shall label this as "My Routine Life".. haha..

Hmm.. i really can't imagine tat for the next like 40 years of my life, i'm gg to spend it this way.. The Routine Working Life!! But this is reality right?? I'm grown up in the city and this is the standard city life i should call it.. think all those living in the city goes through this.. maybe all the ple in Earth goes through this..Even rural ple have routine life.. haha.. so why complain??

hi..

2005-04-11T13:54:00.000+08:00

let's see wat i did in the weekends..
Saterday:
Went to work.. after work, go home sleep then go piano lesson..tat piano lesson lasted for 2 hours lor!! Gosh.. v.tired at the end of lesson.. hai.. 2 hours cos my teacher not free on one of the saterdays.. then i after lesson so sad cos i like everything oso wrong.. wrong technique, wrong fingering, wrong way of playing staccato, wrong way of playing lagerito.. basically, everything went wrong!! i feel like a beginner learning piano lor!! hai.. thanks to my teacher last time.. never correct my mistakes!! now correct quite hard cos is already like natural to me!! 1st lesson oso like tat.. really drained out after the 2hr lesson.. then is like now i need to work, then no time to practice.. really hard.. hai.. after lesson, i went home to cry.. it's been so long since i cried..haha..

Sunday:
Early in the morning, go out with san.. she late as usual.. haha.. then we had breakfast.. after tat, we took bus 67.. haha.. din noe when to alight, we went to Kallang.. haha..we v.le hai lor, din noe when to alight still sit far far fm driver.. wahaha.. so we took the train back to Orchard then took bus7 there.. this time we smart liao, sit near to the driver.. don noe why, both drivers are Indians!! anyway, the driver v.nice la, tell us where to alight.. had a wonderful time exploring photography and "treking" botanic Garden.. and oso had a fair donation of blood.. haha..you noe wat i mean?? haha.. quite tiring day.. v.hot and walked alot.. after tat, we took bus to Orchard.. bought a singlet.. then had dinner at long john.. think really v.long neve eat liao.. took new print and crap alot.. haha.. enjoyed myself.. had a tiring day oso.. reach home bath and sleepzz.. haha

today:
wake up.. monday bluez.. not enough sleep.. tired.. haha.. but drag myself to work.. today not too busy.. quite routine 5 days following.. sure one.. haha..

today..

2005-04-06T16:18:00.000+08:00

Today quite free in office..nothing much.. so i listen to Ocean.. i literally listen to his songs for the whole day lor!! Gosh.. tired of his songs liao.. now still listening.. haiz.. but wat to do??

determination is the word for success!!

2005-04-06T10:05:00.000+08:00

haha.. noe wat? i need to jian fei.. so i went for a jog ytd!! but think i eat back all the energy i used during dinner.. my grandma la.. eat less then scold.. but anyway, who cares..

ya, this moring as i read san's blog, i'm getting abit worry for her.. cos i used to read on lots of books on dieting and stuff.. i like to read non-friction books ma.. her condition sounds like bulimia but not exactly the same la.. cos ple suffering from bulima is tempted to eat food and not see food or smell food then wanna puke.. Those suffering fm bulimia will eat alot, then feel guilty after that cos they wanna to jian fei.. so they force themselves to puke out the food.. tat's why according to her blog, she don seems like suffering from bulima..
she oso don sounds like anorxia cos ple suffering fm anorxia don eat at all.. from the way she say she only have appitite for dinner makes her sounds fine.. so my conclusion is undetermined.. haha.. lousy doctor rite? cos i'm not a doctor.. i guess maybe is because her medicine she's taking currently makes her sick la.. maybe she should find another doctor or stop eating her medicine.. haha..

weekends..

2005-04-04T10:06:00.000+08:00

hi everyone.. i spent a quite weekend unlike you guys.. went out to meet frenz and things..haha.. but nevertheless, v.enjoyable.. Saterday, i went to work in the morning.. after work, i headed straight to bed!! yahoo.. after tat, i had my piano lesson and i called it a day.. learned quite alot through the lesson.. my new teacher(3rd teacher) corrected my hand position.. actually all these years, i'm a bad, real bad, piano player.. my tecnique is all wrong lor.. now, i take my teaching diploma, i gotta correct all my faulty techniques!! Gosh, it really takes time and hard work!! After lesson, i went home and have dinner.. After dinner, watch a VCD.. then i called it a day..Actually, eileen wanna meet me out sat one.. but cos of my piano lessons, i couldn't meet her.. haiz.. miss her lots.. think i won be meeting her for quite some time liao.. thanks to the piano lessons!! haiz.. so we crap on sms lor..

Sunday: Initally wanted to go church.. but woke up late.. and in the afternoon, our whole family is gg for lunch at Crystal Jade.. haha.. think its been a long time since our family go out for lunch or dinner and i feel so guilty abt this cos i'm usually the one not free.. either meet fren or something like tat.. i'm so selfish, din really reserve time for my parents.. sometimes, i really feel tat i've let them down.. and of course i've as usually let my frenz down.. but wat can i do? why am i so preoccupied?? haiz.. for example, tat time yingz wanna go for tennis.. till now still haven gotta time for her.. i'm so sorry.. hai.. thanks to my grade 8 theory exam!! think she's not in the mood to play tennis already.. haha..how am i gg to squeeze so many things in my life?! hate it this way..but i'm helpless!! Gosh..

Sunday: went to check my eye degree.. the optician say my shang guang jia sheng.. bo bian la..i everyday face the computer, sure will one wat!! But is okie la.. wat's worse is he say i got lazy eye.. since when?! hai.. don care la.. i made a new pair of specs cos my this specs already wear v.long liao.. but still haven spoil le!! good quality ya?? haha..gg collect my new specs on wed or thurs.. hehe..after eye check-up, went to lot 1 with my parents.. we went shopping!! haha.. it's been a long time since i go shopping with my parents.. had a great time nevertheless.. after tat, went home watch Tian Long Ba Bao!! nice show.. but is the long series movie.. After TV, sleep.. and sleep.. and collect fats.. haha.. wake up already, did some exercise on the piano.. then is dinner and i called it a daY!! so is my weekend v.exciting.. i guess not really.. but most imptly, i enjoyed myself..a peaceful weekend i call this..

Botanic Trip!!

2005-04-01T09:41:00.000+08:00

San, after planning for this morning and went to the website to check out for more info, i've finally come out with this master plan!! haha.. Alright, i realise tat there are 3 main places within Botanic Garden, Tanglin core, Central Core and Bukit Timah Core.. the Orchid Garden is in Central Core.. let's fix the date on 10April!!

Alright, here goes my naster plan.. hehe.. We meet at around 9am at CCK Mrt station.. then we go for breakfast..After breakfast, we go and buy some food for picnic for example Nasi Lemak, Chao Mee Fen or bread and cakes.. your favourate!! hehe..if you wan, can oso prepare some food at home.. but i find it quite troublesome.. and not full..think bring some fruits is a good idea cos is juicy and fresh.. Okie, after breakfast and buying our lunch, we're ready to go off from CCK Bus interchange..we'll take bus 67..
When we reach there, we must remember to take some brochers or map..then, we'll take some photos and walk ard and enjoy the smell and feel of nature.. woo..so wonderful.. we'll look at trees and wonder wat's their life like.. hehe.. Alright, after walking, hungry, eat lunch.. after lunch, we'll look for Nation Orchid Garden.. When we buy ticket, say we're from JI and show them our student pass(which is our EZ link card) haha.. so tat we'll get the student price ma.. haha:D smart right?? haha.. then we walk until evening.. maybe take bus to orchard to have dinner or go home after tat..

Things to Bring: Water, Camera, umbrella, cap, Money and one extra tee shirt just in case we sweat too much and need to change.. haha.. Do we need insect repellant? cos i intend to wear 3/4 pants.. wear jeans v.hot le..

hi..

2005-03-30T14:43:00.000+08:00

haha.. lazy to blog then gana san scold.. Ohh.. think i must be more hardworking nxt time.. haha:p i think san is really bored to death ya?! hehe.. wat should i write?? haha.. got it!! i was planing to get a job as a piano teacher at Christofori but know wat? i still owe then school fees.. gee^_^ Cos tat time i learn my grade 8 theory there ma, then i stop and din give them early notice then neve go sch.. haiz.. don noe if i've bad record then they don let me teach there..hehe.. but i'll give it a try anyway.. i intend to send my resume to the e.mail as stated in the newspaper..then if they are interested, they'll reply and i'll be a piano teacher!! my childhood dream!! hehe.. now i'm learning my teaching diploma.. tat's why i need to teach to get some experience so as to pass easier..God, must give me this job ya?! haha.. need it v.much..

Other then tat, i oso intend to quit.. i'm been saying this for the donno how many times.. think san must be so rolling her eyes by now.. hehe.. but anyway, i was thinking if it's worth changing into a tougher job for this slack one.. so tat's why it took me so long and so much determination(still lacking now..) hehe..

Aaa..sianz..

2005-03-29T14:32:00.000+08:00

Wat to write?? i've finished reading comic book 11 liao!! left one more to go.. too bad neve bring to office.. hehe..today office v.cold.. no, should say everyday!! then i adjust the temp to 24 degrees then gana tat fierce bulldog looking lao ban liang scold.. haiz.. ming ku ar!! so now the air con is 22 degrees.. sian.. luckily i'm wearing 3 cloths.. so not too bad la.. haha..

Aaa..

2005-03-29T14:27:00.000+08:00

These few days..

2005-03-28T08:43:00.000+08:00

haha.. have been slacking for these few days so din type my blog.. but today, i in a good mood so decided to type again!! yesterday, Sunday, went to church early in the morning!! Yorn.. wa, wake up at 7am le.. but since ytd is Easter Day, a day where Jesus rose form death to heaven.. Quite a memoriable day to celebrate ya?! he's sitted at the right hand of his father.. Okie.. tat's all i learned ytd fm church.. After tat, i met ming ping go shopping.. not really shopping la.. but go walk Walk lor.. hee.. we end up eating and eating.. haha.. eat alots.. haha.. think growing fats liao.. we eat mochi, then chicken drum stick, then chicken steak, then shu shi!! haha.. tat's for tea break.. Gosh.. after eating tat, i still went for a ice-cream cone for Mc Donalds!! yummy:p i love the McDonald's ice-cream cone!! yahoo!! we went Suntec.. cos mp wanna buy blades and i wanna buy a bike!! wow, i wanna buy a bike for like since sec 3 la.. haha.. "Roll" ard and look at bike and blades.. haha..mp usually use the word roll instead of walk..

Then one day back, Saterday!! Went to work as usual.. after tat met Eileen and Boon hui go shopping for my frenz b'dae party.. haha.. bought her a cup,v.cute one!! Got a round chick ya!! haha.. and a ear ring and the nail art.. wow.. superb right~0~ hehe.. had quite some fun in her hse though the catering food not too good!! but i still like the Orh Ni.. yummy!!played poker card and crap with my fren's younger brother.. haha.. his younger brother v.cute le.. like Dash in the incredibles.. he oso v. lame lor!! haha.. had a great time there though i gotta leave early cos v.far fm my hse..

Now, Friday!! Public Holidays!! Yeah.. sleep and slack at home in the morning!! i pack my wall drop(cupboard).. you noe my cloths like v.luan ar, so i make up my mind to tidy up all my clothes!! hehe.. after tat, sweep the floor.. haha.. feel like a housewife le.. but after tat, seeing my room so clean and tidy, v.happy!! Satisified with myself!! haha.. Oh, during lunch, my mom cooked pasta!! yum yum!! after tat, i went to meet my New piano teacher.. she's my teacher's teacher.. a nice woman!! haha:D She'll be my new teacher who will teach me teaching diploma!! Wow.. i really wants to be a piano teacher.. my childhood dream la.. so is gg to be true soon!! yeah.. now i looking for piano students.. cos if got experience in teaching, it'll help in my diploma.. after meeting my teacher, i went to Seng Song supermarket at ten miles junction!! haha.. went to look look see see.. so happy, all food!! haha.. but too bad cannot buy all..wow, if i continue to write can become my life essay liao.. hehe..

Mindpower..

2005-03-24T14:11:00.000+08:00

Hey gals!! i just read about tis book v.interesting so wanna share with you guys.. do u know tat boredom can induce stress similar to stress induced by too much activity?! haha.. tis book is written by a doctor.. and it says tat the stress induced will cause illmess.. So slackers including myself out there, beware!! cure?
1.take up a hobby tat's rewarding. IT adds excitement to life..
2.learn something new like joining a class.. make new friends..
3.avoid potentially boring situations
4.plan life and take risk."If you take risks and fail, you'll at least have tried. If you never take risks, you'll never know wat you could have achieved. And you'll probably die of boredom.wat a sad way to go!!" haha..
5.Escape by creating a fantasy daydrean for yourself..think of a situation tat you wld enjoy..

It also says tat sadness and anger will cause illness oso.. so if you guys are sad, must cry le.. the tears in your eyes caused by sadness contain high protein content and is said to be better to cry it out..

if you're angry, don let it overcome your emotion, instead, express it and get rid of it through the following means:
1.powerful complains and expressing your anger and fustration in as positive a manner as possible.
2.vent your anger through sports like squash,tennis or basketball.. do not suppress it.. must rem to let it out!!

i only read till here.. share with you guys more after i've finished reading more!! hehe..

Wat i learn..

2005-03-22T10:15:00.000+08:00

From office, after working for abt 3mths, i realise tat i've learn something.. i learn to keep quite for the whole day..hehe.. last time in sch, i find it quite hard to do this but now, is different.. haha.. i can don speak a word for the whole day, just immerse myself in my own thoughts.. which is quite enjoyable i find it.. haha.. maybe that's the quite side of me.. you noe, ple do have two side..one side wants excitement while the other side just want a peaceful day.. some ple do have double character.. i think i'm one of them..hehe..

Today sld be considered not so busy day in office cos i almost finish half my book of comics.. san, i'm now at book 6 liao so think v.fast can return to you cos i can finish about 1 book per day.. haha.. cos lazy to bring 2 books everyday ma..

When i read san's blog, i realise that i'm a nature lover too!!i enjoyed watching sun rise and set.. just too beautiful and it could just draw away my soul.. i don noe how to describe, but is jus amazing!! like a beautiful picture.. yet so real.. i love the forest too.. the smell of nature, grass and trees all so relaxing and comfortable to me.. the chipping of the birds cheered my day.. breathing in fresh air makes me feel fresh after a tiring day.. the breeze and wind just blow away my stress.. this is the power of nature i guess..tats why i love it!!

Another quiz result..

2005-03-21T15:33:00.000+08:00

The one passion that deeply burns in your soul is that you want the world to be a better place! You love nature and... Well... Basically everything on this earth! Your conquest is to try and make everyone realize the beauty around them, but most just laugh at the idea or say you're crazy. But... Who cares what they think? You're a sweet, sensitive person who strongly stands behind your own, or others beliefs! You are usually the leader of the pack, not taking crap from others and showing everyone your power. You believe the world should be filled with people who really, truely appericate it... But then... The only person that would be left you be you! Your scantuary is anywhere outside where you can enjoy what mother nature gave you. A bliss... Keep enjoying life and help others realize the awe in nature! I guess there really is such things as having green thumbs :D

monday again..

2005-03-21T13:51:00.000+08:00

read comics for the whole morning till don feel like writing blog.. haha.. but anyway, just a short one.. i made lots mistakes.. haha.. gana scolding by winston.. but anyway.. continued to enjoy reading comics after tat.. actually quite busy nowadays.. hai.. i prefer to slack in office but those days are gone..nowadays, sales are quite good..also meaning quite busy..haha..

Saterday!!

2005-03-19T12:49:00.000+08:00

Yeah.. is a half day!! so happy.. hehe.. got two outings later but i don intend to go for both.. just wanna have a good time resting and reading comics at home.. haha.. so bad right?? but anyway.. i've gotta learn fm san, come out with a list of things i wanna buy tml.. hehe..quite wu liao rite? but anyway, here it goes..
1. Bag
2. Earphone
3. Blades.. hmm.. haven confirm
4. Clothes
5. Good food.. yum yum.. haha:D

i not v.tan xin so think is already enuff.. haha..

had a real busy day today in office.. type and type invoice.. finish already then do filing..hai..but at least i'm occupied..don need to slack until sian.. going to finish work soon at 1pm.. haha:D

is a friday!!

2005-03-18T11:30:00.000+08:00

happy mood today morning but tat stupid idiotic lao ban liang(yucks) is really a good mood sweeper!! think she's sui wei lor!! v.greedy!!!!! she likes to gamble.. hope that she loss all her money!! then bao xue guang die la.. hope that she can gamble until loss everything then commit sucide just like the man.. haha..I hate her!! wa lao, noe wat?? i help buy the chee chong fun then she say this say that lor.. none of her business la.. wat's her problem?? too free nothing to do then go and gamble and loss all her money la.. so kei bo for waT!! I wanna curse her loss money then i v.happy:D haha.. she going genting next friday!! Yeah.. hope that she can go there forever.. stay there or even die there better!! hai.. don noe why she so hao ming can be lao ban liang one le.. she so er xin lor.. think men see her will run away ar!! she so evil, will surely die a horrible death!!hump.. i v.bu suang lor.. everytime use the office phone and crap with friends.. then got calls she just ignore.. constomers call again then complain to me say why our line cannot get through..i should have say that yucks crapping with her friends on the phone lor!! should hai her!! muahahaha..

2nd thing..

2005-03-17T09:45:00.000+08:00

As for the 2nd thing that i'm confused about is the change of work.. my brother and grandma encourage me not to change work..my grandma say standing for the whole day is a tiring work.. my brother say not to change work cos it'll be hard to find some job as good as this one.. i'm confused again.. my mom got a good point la.. she say if i go and work as sales assistance, i won really learn anything cos most of the time, i'll just stand there and stone..quite true la.. the diff is stand and sit that's all.. Hmm.. maybe.. my mom say if i really want to learn, must do those direct sales promotor, which is rather dangerous.. cos " you'll get molested or sort of embarressed by male costumers" by gym uncle.. that gym uncle work as a chemical marketing director ma.. so he knows and got some experience in this sector, marketing..

Confuseeeeddd about two things..

2005-03-17T09:26:00.000+08:00

The most important thing i'm unsure about is my academic.. i'm still confused as to wat to take.. cos now still can change course.. hai.. yesterday, i had a discussion with my parents, brother, gym uncle and winston.. of course all have different opinions.. now, i've narrowed my choice to 4, mainly Chemistry, Material science, Business and Electrical and Electronics.. But the problem is wat to put in order?? Winston taught me the way to choose.. he's a real nice guy i should say, v.wise and knowledgable.. he say i should consider the work scope, the future ecomonic perspective, and do some research as to why the course is good.. He teach me how to come out with a decision which i'll not regret next time.. He also convince me why business is good.. so i with these in mind, i went home to discuss with my parents.. my brother oso got a point why business is not so good for me..he say study those course which reqires hands on cos nxt time come out to work, it's impossible to get in touch with these machines provided by the university..then he say if i need business nxt time, can study or take up some courses to manage my career.. quite a good point isn't it?? then my mom say i should take up chemistry cos next time i'll have professional knowledge.. it'll help in marketing oso.. quite true la.. business is too general in the sense tat if i go into marketing, i'll be stuck forever even if i realise that nxt time after studing that the job doesn't really suit me.. if i take chem, i can try other things other than marketing so in this sense, it's wider job scope and more things to try..quite true.. then i talk to the gym uncle and he encourage me to take engineering cos he say study that still have a bright future..my brother say i should follow my interest cos if i'm interested in that topic, i'll score better..he say is better to get a first class honours in engineering then 2nd class honours in business, something i'm not that interested in.. got another point!! so with so many comments,i'm lost again..

Quiting..

2005-03-16T12:21:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone.. I really feel like quiting my job and try other things le.. do you guys think i should try sales?? sales will definately earn less then my present job and the timing is worse.. i hate to work in the weekends lor.. but should i try it just to learn new things?? i'm unsure.. yesterday i meet ming ping again cos she now working as a credit card promoter.. not too bad le.. she can get $7 per hr but is only work on Friday, Sat and Sun la..we calculated liao.. she still manages to get ard $1000 per mth.. but only need to work ard 3days per mth le.. she also encourage me to try new things.. for example sales and sort.. she say now got time to try should try.. so i was thinking it wasnt such a bad idea afterall.. haha..

Money..

2005-03-16T12:05:00.000+08:00

Hi, actually i wan to write abt this topic for a v.long time but just that either no time or on mood.. to me, money is the devil!! It can really ruin a Happy Family.. don know if you guys read abt the news just recently about this husband who gambles and owe ple money.. he killed his children and wife then commit sucide.. why?? cos of money and greed.. all human beings are greedy.. who's not?? why do we study?? Think for many, the reason is money.. why work?? money.. Frankly speaking, how many really study for the love of it?? Of course there is, for example me.. opps.. haha:P why do part time?? to prepare ourself for the future, get work experience.. why need work experience?? for money.. so everything we do is actually related to money.. but we really cannot do without money.. we need it for basic survival, food and shelter.. hae.. have you guys wonder what life would be like without money?? the politics happening in offices are mainly due to money.. if they don care how much they get, there wont be politics.. So money is evil yet important.. i think sometimes we are actually slaves of money.. they drive us to work.. but what can we do?? Move back to jungle ar!! haha.. impossible right..so we must bear with it lo.. no choice..

Bored..

2005-03-15T12:15:00.000+08:00

Hai.. today winston in office so whole morning cannot blog.. but anyway, i'm as usual, bored in office again.. do you guys think i should change job?? i feel so bored le.. not interesting at all.. today, i finally finish reading the comic book 1 tat san lend me.. haha.. achievement right!! anyway, ytd i went out with ming ping.. we went for dinner and walk ard lot1.. went library, i borrow this v.interesting book entitled 'mindpower- How to use your mind to heal your body.' quite an interesting book.. think san'll like to read abt it right? nvm, after i read finish then i'll share it with you guys!!

i read the first few pages already, it says is the determination to survive is even more impt than medication and i think it's quite true.. It told a story of this woman named Pam who's down with cancer and the doctor estimate that she has only 10more days to live.. but this woman have 3 children to take care of so she insist to stay at home to look after her children.. as days pass, she grew thiner and thiner but never die.. then one day, she cannot da han must go hospital.. but she bu fang xin her children and wan them to have a family.. after a week or so, found a foster home for her children.. when she know that the family treat her children good, then she an xin de die.. v.interesting right?? this is a real story lor..

this story suddenly remind me of my wai po.. hai.. she's a strong person who also was tortured under illness.. before she die, she had a good fight and grew v.thin.. though i din get to see her the last time b4 she die, but heard that she's real thin.. cos she used to be quite fat ma.. she stayed on to see my uncle get married before she dies.. anyway, these are some examples of how determination, which is in the mind, can exceed what science could not achieve!!

Monday again..

2005-03-14T12:31:00.000+08:00

Today morning got abit busy cos i need to do the filing for sat.. I took half day leave on sat for piano exam rem?? haha.. Exam was quite alright i should say.. haha:D finally exam is over!! can go out more often in the weekends liao.. hurray!!

Hmm.. yesterday i went to church with Eileen.. her church the ple v.enthu le.. i got a shock lor.. like do some ritual thing at the beginning.. felt quite out of place at first la.. but just kept quite cos they sing the song i don noe one ma.. then some things they say really made my hair stand!! think my goosebums stands for like 10 times through lor.. maybe more than that.. haha.. but anyway, wat the precher say quite interesting la.. jus that got abit uncomfortable..

Ya, ytd i register for NUS liao.. wa, gotta pay $10 for online reg lor.. cheat ple money one!! Go JC oso don need registeration fee one lor!! But anyway, i registered for Chemistry as my first choice, then electrical engineering and 3rd choice, business.. haha:D finally everything is settled..

Know wat, i'm depressed!! cos i heard form another Elieen that Daniel is a gay!! Gosh.. Quite suay rite?! But even if he's not gay, he won like me la.. so forget it!! Now looking for new target.. haha:P

2005-03-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

Me & my buddy San

No mood..

2005-03-11T11:27:00.000+08:00

Hai.. not really in a mood to write blog.. but it's already become a regular thing for me so gotta write something anyway.. tomorrow is my big day!! MY GRADE 8 Theory exam!! so wish me good luck ya.. bless me with the inspiration to compose music okie?? cos i Grade 5 Theory failed quite badly at that section.. haha.. I'm scared right now.. quite scared that all the qn i don noe how to do le.. scared that i'll fail my theory.. hai, sianz..

Inspiration Of Sports..

2005-03-10T10:13:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i went to jogging.. when i began to jog, i felt i'm much heavier!! yes, i've grown fat!! By admitting, i'm half way to success!! haha:P so know wat? in life, admit your mistakes and think of ways to change yourself.. to correct the mistakes..

I've really learn alot of lessons through sports.. i learn to endure.. Although exercising means sweating and sometimes even pain(muscle cramp) , it is your determination to suceed that helps you overcome and endure through this hardship.. for example, i din exercise for quite long liao.. but yesterday i went and set myself a target of completing 8 rounds in stadium.. this may sound crazy but i did it!! ya, i leg feel jelly after tat but wat keeps me going is my determination to finish my target.. To tell you guys the truth, sports has inspired me to be strong and it really helped in my academic work.. I think the important lesson i learn from sports is endurence!! This lesson is also v.appliciable in our lifes!! For example if we meet with failure, there's two choice, to give up or to go on(endure).. Sports teaches you to go on and push your limits.. Never give up until you drop dead!! Everyone has their physical and mental limits.. but you won noe it unless you try and stretch yourself and overcome the limits.. that's why Olampmics is such an achievement to sportsman.. they achieve and break records which no one thinks is possible.. this i call it overcoming limits.. Actually, we are stronger and more than wat we believe we are..

Of course there're more lessons learn from sports but this lesson i guess is the most important lesson i learn.. Exercising has too much benfits to neglect and slack!! So i'm gg to share with you guys some so that hopefully you guys will be inspired to exercise!! Exercise can relax your body, reduce stress or i should say, add stress so that you can tolerate more stress in your life, help to keep your body strong, jian fei( though you'll be heavier after that due to fats turning muscles), tan your body( Mei Rong).. haha.. Tat's why exercise is good for you!! Start exercising from today!!(WoW.. sounds like an advertisment!!) haha:D

Life Is Fun!!

2005-03-09T10:10:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, i date ming ping go play basketball!! Yeah.. my favourate sport!! I'll let yesterday mark my first zian fei day!! From now on, i'm going to full time jian fei!! know wat? on my way home yesterday, i met this gym uncle.. cos last time i always go gym ma.. so get to noe him.. he stays same block as me.. above me lor.. then know wat? his first reaction to me is" Oh.. you've grown FAT!!" kow!! I'm a girl le.. how can he be so unsensitive!! But anyway, i answer him" Haha..I Know that!! I'm gg to Jian Fei liao la.." haha.. so fu yan ta right?? But anyway, i really decided to go on diet la.. I wanna anounce here: From today onwards, i must go exercise everyday!! haha..

New Desk at last..

2005-03-08T09:40:00.000+08:00

Later, a new office table will be arriving!! i'm so excited.. cos in working life, there's really not much thing for you to be excited about!! haha.. i'm gg to have a bigger table at last!! this present computable table is so small and things v.easy drop to the ground one le.. nt much space to do things..

Sometimes i really wish there's just one more people working in the office with me.. i not v.tan xin.. just one more is enuff.. it's really boring down here alone.. i wonder sometimes will i lose touch with the outside world or don noe how to talk after working alone for so long.. haha.. but think won ba.. cos in friendster, almost all my testomial say i v.crappy.. haha.. i'm not okie?! i'm just.. Ermzz.. haha..

I understand now why my SMS always excede liao.. cos i'm too bored in the office so must msg ple to talk.. haha:D so who's the lucky chap who receive my crappy msg?? haha..

Nutshell..

2005-03-08T09:20:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i was thinking if i was really like living in a nutshell.. In this dangerous and unpreditable world, one must live in a shell in order to shield yourself from harm and getting hurt.. is life really so painful?? I don noe.. after living for so many years, i think for many people, the real self is no longer seen.. wat ple see is only the shell of a person.. why?? Because people get hurt, stand up, get hurt again and this process is repeated many times until some who do not have the courage to stand up again will naturally hide in his shell.. a place which feels safe, unexposed.. i don noe if i'm one of them.. but maybe sometimes, we sld still peep out from this shell to see the world.. tat's when the real person comes out.. haha.. i don noe how many would understand wat i'm writing cos quite chim la.. wahahaha..

There will be people who hide in the nutshell for so long that they no longer could figure out who exactly they are.. haha.. maybe sometimes one will ask themselves who am i?? that's when people could no longer come out from the comfortable hiding place.. sometimes i wonder if i'm one of them.. maybe.. but i wonder in this world, how many people don hide in this comfortable place.. i guess none.. wow.. i sounds like i study psychology.. haha.. but these are just my observation of mankinds.. plus thoughts from books i've read before..

MONDAY Bluezzz..

2005-03-07T10:26:00.000+08:00

Today morning wake up got monday bluezzz.. tat's why i wear blue color top to work!! Interesting right?! Anyway, i felt quite bad on Friday la.. i did quite okie.. i mean as i've expected.. but felt quite sad that my too best buddies couldn't make it to uni.. hai.. the feeling is quite horrible le.. but still.. Now, i'm having trouble selecting course.. think i most prob go engineering la.. cos i most prob cannot enter dentistry with a C6 in GP.. sian.. think i'll be gg for Electrical and Electronic Engineering or Material Science and Engineering or Aerospace Engineering.. i also don noe wat to take.. maybe can consider chemistry.. but think it'll be quite boring subject..

Saterday, i went to work.. after work, i went to the Suntec Exhibition with chong tiang cos he ask me out ma.. then i oso no one pei me go see exhibition so ask him pei me go lor.. but i feel quite guilty after that cos i think i'm leading him on again when i don think i like him.. haha.. don noe why, i always do that to guys.. cos i treat him as my fren only.. so fren fren can always go out right?? haha.. sometimes i just don understand why when a gal and guy goes out, they think there's something between them.. why can't they just be frens?? haha.. i mean it's hard when someone ask u out and u reject that person right?! It just don feel right.. but i think got abit embarressing to go out with a guy alone too.. haha.. you noe, in the exhibition, meet some AJ ple then like quite embarresssing lor.. haha.. anyway..think my heart can only contain one person per time.. not too big heart.. haha..

Sunday..nothing special, read up on diff course to see which one suits me better... then study theory at home cos nxt sat is my big day!! GRADE 8 THEORY EXAM!!

Today..

2005-03-03T10:17:00.000+08:00

Today i went to friendster to write lots of testomials!! yeah.. think i wrote ard 5 testomials.. Achievement right?! Anyway, quite free today so went to find something constructive to do lor.. At least better then hu si luan xiang right!!

Actually i was thinking of Daniel for the whole morning.. i was wondering if it's right to tell him..hai.. mao dun.. I think he don like me la.. jus treat me as a good fren thats all... think if i tell him, he'll ignore me totally.. but if i don tell him, he won noe.. hai.. i will feel yi han oso.. how?! think i'll decide later ba.. i went to Friendster and read about him.. i think he fits me quite well.. haha.. tats why it got me thinking..

Dreamzzz...

2005-03-02T09:58:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, i had two dreams.. one is a nightmare while the other on is not too bad.. hehe.. know wat?! i dream of Daniel le.. i really couldn't figure out why after so many years, i still couldn't forget about him.. maybe is b'cos i ytd went to friendster and saw him, then wrote him a testimonal ba.. thats why he appear in my dream.. Anyway, i couldn't really figure out my feelings for him.. Do i still like him or are we frens.. i'm not sure..hope that he's not reading this cos i gave him my blog add today through friendster.. hai..if he is, hope that he'll give me some comments.. i really wants to clearify with myself my feelings for him..

By the way, i've read in books before that what ple do in the day will be reflected in the dream in some wierd way.. think it's quite true.. ytd chiong tiang msg me before i sleep abt the A level result thing so i had a nightmare abt the A level results.. hai..

Results Coming out on 4th March!!

2005-03-02T09:06:00.000+08:00

i had a nightmare ytd.. i dream that i did quite badly for my A levels.. sweat.. hai.. now i'm abit scared.. wat's worse is that i need to work half day on 4th March!!!!! hai.. i'm depressed!! Gosh.. is all b'cos Winston is in army and no one to control the PC so i gotta work half day and Winston say he try to take leave from NS to do the nxt half day.. Btw, if you guys don know, results out at 2.30pm.. i heard that from my fren ytd.. i'm really scared.. how?! i was thinking for the whole morning wat if my results are really those i dream of?! Definately cannot get into dentistry.. i was thinking if i really cannot get into dentistry, then i'll go for engineering cos i don really like Chemistry in the sense that i don like to work as a researcher.. dam boring right!! hai.. so sianzzzz...but engineering is not so popular now that the market has over supply of engineer(er)s.. so hai.. i'm unsure wat to do!! I feel so uncertain..

Maybe i shall continue with my piano teaching diploma so that in case i cannot get into Uni ( touch wood) , I can still teach piano and find a leaving.. haha..

Freedom At Last!!

2005-03-01T09:20:00.000+08:00

haha.. today, i sld say for the whole of this week, i'm free.. Why?! cos Winston is in NS.. yahoo.. but sometimes do hope he's there cos he's a really nice guy and like my superman, can solve all the problems i encounter during work..hehe..Really enjoy talking to him cos i think he's much wiser then me!! Of course la.. he older wat, so naturally wiser right!!

Oh, ytd gotta print and check statements so real busy.. but i've settled everything by yesterday's afternoon at 2.45pm and i'm so proud of myself!! Though no one really praise me unlike in san's office, i nevertheless still praise myself for the wonderful job i've done!! haha..i did it all by myself le.. though Winston got come back for like half an hour ytd to help.. but mostly is i do one!! hehe..

So had a busy day ytd.. Today Alittle free(er) can talk abt things i did in my weekend.. Actually i've mention before i went San hse do sushi on sat so i shall nt say anymore.. but gotta little comment here.. i realise ping don noe how to make sushi although she cook dinner everynight!! hehe.. i think i'm so talented man.. never really know how to cook but my sushi still better than ping.. honoured right!! hee^_^

Sunday: I had a really wonderful and satisfying..Must be wondering wat i did right?! I Study theory for the whole day.. the feeling is like my JC days where i spent most of my weekends studying.. it feels great you noe.. though it might sound boring.. Of course i got watch TV and go out for lunch la.. but majority of my time is spent studying.. hehe..

Quick Update..

2005-03-01T05:14:00.000+08:00

I had a super duper great weekend.. yeah!! last and last last weekends had been so far the best days in Feb.. Ya, if Huiping is reading this, i had a really fun time tricking ya:p i guess everyone has.. haahaa.. see you so lang bei hor, really pity ya.. haha.. btw, do u noe that basement of cini has a toilet..haha.. tat's if ya haven figured out.. this weekend, which is ytd and the day b4, i went out with Eileen.. hehe.. we had a great time crapping.. think tats what we always did when we go shopping and she agrees with me!! haha.. As for sunday, i meet ming ping play b.ball!! Oh ya, i bought a new b.ball lately!! super nice one!! Nxt time come my hse i show ya.. At night, i went to unique seafood eat.. YUM YUM!!

As for today morning, hai.. i've gotta drag myself to work.. sian..happy time's over!! But is okie, tink i'll be meeting san tis sunday right? am i right? confirm with ya nw.. after this weekend, i'm gg concentrate on my Grade 8 theory 1st and resist the temptation of fun for the time being.. haha..

V.V.V.V.BUSY!!!

2005-02-28T10:38:00.000+08:00

Gosh!! no time for monday blues today cos i'm really too busy!! gotta do all the statements for the month cos winston is not ard to do it so.. hai.. but at least not bored la.. haha..

Its a Saterday!!

2005-02-26T11:05:00.000+08:00

Today though was a Saterday, but i feel quite normal.. in the sense that it feels like it'll be quite a peaceful day.. but thats good, isn't it?! haha.. gotta work in the morning.. yucks, i hate to work on Saterday!! but anyway, i've been quite busy this morning so could only update myself nw, which is rather late.. yeah, later gg out with San.. hopefully she won't be gg the jc class outing.. hehe.. i believe that her.. ya, so later will be cooking Sushi.. yum yum!! this is my first time cook sushi yea!! haha.. when i think of it, i got abit excited liao..

As for the accident i wrote abt, i think the woman died if i'm not wrong cos Yew Tee there write a board that ask for witness for that Fatal Accident.. so should be quite serious i think.. the pic there shows a car knock down a bicycle.. so i think that woman is riding on a bic when she's knock down.. but the wierd thing is i saw that bic but it's not dented or anything.. only the woman is lying on the road with blood coming out fm mouth.. so i though is not that serious.. haha

Nothing Special..

2005-02-25T09:52:00.000+08:00

haha.. today is Friday!! donno why, but i feel quite happy today:) Sometimes it is hard to explain feelings.. ya, had a really good chat with san ytd.. As we talk, i realise that i've not been really in touch with her for a long time.. but think it's a good one cos we gossip quite alot.. haha..did catch up with each other abit.. hehe... i told her somethings which i don intend to tell anyone.. but i jus feel comfortable enuff to tell her so i did..

Anyway, if san is reading this, i just wanna tell you that all my frens are special to me in one way or another so don compare ming ping with yourself.. hehe.. ya, sometimes i feel that this blog is only written for myself and san cos i realise the only one commenting is sanz.. haha.. jus take this place as my diary lor.. can keep track of myself too.. anyway, i still dont understand what i'm thinking sometimes.. scarry right?! i think soo too sometimes.. but since this is me, i shall accept myself as the way i'm.. Scopio are mysterious ple, aren't they?! haha..

Thoughts

2005-02-24T12:53:00.000+08:00

Working is'nt that fun afterall!! yesterday, i was accused of making a mistake i din do and that stupid lao ban liang(now sitting right behind me) wanna threaten me to deduct my salary!! S evil!! Of course i bu shuang la.. So i explain to her is not my fault lor.. after listening and with some evidence, she's got nothing to say!! haha.. if she dare to deduct my salary, i sue her ar!! Da bu liao quit lor.. but i still wanna curse her fall down and break her leg so that she need not come to office and fan wo!! muahaha.. so evil!! hehe:pAnyway, i'm gg have some fun today and tml after work!! looking forward to it!! i'm gg meet eileen go shopping today and play b.ball with ming ping tml!! wow.. my life is so dou zhi dou cai in the weekends.. how i wish everyday is a weekend!! got plans for next week too!! maybe meeting san to make su shi!! yum yum!! then maybe borrow some commics fm her to entertain myself in office.. can right,san.. haha..Scarry thing is approaching soon.. the release of my A level results and of course following that is my Grade 8 theory exam.. I really scared that i'll fail my theory le.. but now don feel like studing.. how?! Die la.. God Bless me!!

No Nightmare Yesterday!!

2005-02-24T10:14:00.000+08:00

Yeah!! NO nightmare oh.. gee^_^ had a great dream..

Today, i was doing some self reflection on my way to work cos my mom say only smart ple reflects!! haha.. so i tried to be smart.. yeah.. Anyway, i realise that after working for so long, i slowly learned to adapt to my enviro.. and from this job, i learn to be more careful in my work.. because one small mistake will means that the whole production have to work harder, there'll be headache for the driver who deliver the goods and loss of profit. So the working world does not really had much space to make mistakes!! So now, i rather do my work slowly and make sure it has no mistakes then fast with lots of mistakes.. this is my sol to my careless nature.. hehe:) smart right?!

On my way to work, i was wondering what my future is like?! I feel as if i'm a lost ship sailing in a big ocean without an aim.. i'm so unclear of my future.. I also had dreams of living in a countryside, far from the complicated life of city. But think further, is this wat i really want?! Will i be able to adapt to the life? Think my ans is no. So i decided to go on a tour at least once a year.. hehe.. Then i got this aim to be a piano teacher nxt time. But i realise i like science more than music.. so how? if i really got into dentistry course in uni, i'll have to give up my dream as a piano teacher cos it's a heavy course and i don have the time to deal with music anymore.. but my mom still encourage me to continue with my teaching diploma after my Grade 8 theory exam.. what should i do? think i better wait for my results to determine my future la.. think too much oso no use..

yucks

2005-02-24T02:05:00.000+08:00

Today was really Yucks!! know wat? when i was on my way to work, is saw a woman body lying on the road with bloody gushing out of her mouth!! i was quite disturbed by that scene.. you noe? is human le.. so this incident get me to starting of how precious yet fragile life is..

As for the dentistry thing, the doctor msg me today morning and say the vacancy is filled.. but nevertheless, i can go in to look look see see la.. haha.. think tat's better..So i guess i couldn't really quit this present job ba.. haha.. but think everything is going quite smoothly nowadays so i gotta just be more careful lor.. make less mistake and create less trouble.. haha.. things are not as bad as i thought..know why i use red and blue for my wording? cos i wear this color to work today!! hehe:) ya, do you guys know today is last day of new year?! here i wanna greet all my frens a v.v.happy chinese new year with lots of ang baos!!